My boss watched an old man stack six dollars in quarters on our front counter and said, “We don’t do charity, and we sure as hell don’t do whatever’s living in that beard.” A cut was forty-five. I sat the man in my chair anyway, and what he told me under that cape is why I haven’t slept since.
It was a Tuesday, eighteen minutes before close.
Traci had flipped the sign on the door but hadn’t locked it yet.
He came in slow, holding the frame like he wasn’t sure the floor would take his weight.
Gray beard down to his collar. A canvas jacket with one pocket hanging by a few threads.
He smelled like a car heater that had run all night.
“I know it’s late,” he said. “I’ve got six dollars. I can bring the rest Friday.”
Traci looked at his boots.
“A cut’s forty-five,” she said. “Plus the beard.”
He nodded like he’d already done that math out in the parking lot.
Then he started stacking the quarters anyway. Little towers of four, lined up beside the appointment book.
Cierra rolled her stool back toward the wall.
He saw it.
He didn’t say a word about it.
“I can sweep up,” he said. “Wipe the mirrors down. I’ve got somewhere to be Thursday at nine, and I want to look like somebody worth opening a door for.”
The radio in the back was playing the same car-dealership ad for the third time that hour.
That’s when Dermot came out of the back.
Dermot Mahoney owns the shop. His name is on the window, on the capes, on the little cards by the register.
He looked at the quarters. Then the beard. Then at me, because I was the only one with an empty chair.
“We don’t do charity,” he said. “And we sure as hell don’t do whatever’s living in that.”
There was nobody in the shop but us.
The old man laid his hand over the towers and slid them back into his palm, one stack at a time.
“Yes sir,” he said. “Sorry to hold you up.”
It was the way he said sir.
And where he looked when he said it.
Not at Dermot. At the framed picture by the register, the shop in 1979, striped pole out front, some barber nobody remembers standing in the doorway.
“Hang on,” I said.
All three of them turned.
“I’ll take him.”
Dermot didn’t even move his head.
“He can’t pay, Jade.”
“I heard.”
“Then you’re eating it. YOUR chair rent. Forty-five, fifty with the beard.”
“Fine.”
“I’m not kidding.”
“I said FINE.”
The old man stood there with the quarters in his fist like he couldn’t tell which one of us was the joke.
Then he walked over.
Before he sat, he ran his thumb along the arm of my chair, over the split in the red vinyl where everybody’s elbow goes.
“Still got the crack,” he said.
I didn’t know what that meant.
I put the cape on him and picked up the clippers.
He held very still for a man that tired. Head level. Hands under the cape.
And his eyes stayed on the mirror the whole time.
Not on his own face. Past it, to the register, where Dermot was counting the drawer with his back to us.
Twice his chin shook, and he pressed his mouth flat until it quit.
I wanted to ask.
I didn’t.
I took the beard down to a short gray line along his jaw. Cleaned up his neck. Tapered the back.
Behind his left ear there was a scar, small and white, curved like a fishhook.
When I spun him around to face the mirror, he wasn’t the man who’d walked in.
He looked like somebody’s grandfather on a Sunday.
He stared at himself for a long time.
Then his shoulders started going. Quiet. Under the cape.
I put the clippers down.
“Hey. You okay?”
Nothing for a while.
When he finally talked, it was to the mirror.
“I sat him in this chair when he was FOUR YEARS OLD,” he said. “Screamed the whole time. Kicked the footrest clean off.”
I had to hold on to the back of the chair.
“Who?”
He looked past me. At the register. At the back of Dermot’s head.
“I sold this place in ’91,” he said. “Drank every dollar of it inside two years. His mother told me not to come near him until I could stand up straight.”
“Mister, I don’t…”
“Took me THIRTY-FIVE YEARS,” he said. “Thursday at nine was supposed to be the day I knocked.”
He reached under the cape and into the pocket that was hanging by its threads.
He came out with a photograph. Soft at the corners. Bent from being carried.
A little redheaded kid in this same red chair, mouth wide open, mid-scream.
A man behind him holding clippers. Dark beard. Same fishhook scar behind the ear.
He turned it over and held it out to me.
Pencil on the back, four words.
DERMOT. FIRST CUT. 1981.
At the register, the drawer slammed shut.
“Jade,” Dermot said. “You about done over there?”
He was already walking toward us with the bank bag.
And the old man was getting up out of my chair.
Chair three, 6:43
He took the cape off himself. Unsnapped it at the neck and folded it once over the arm of the chair, the way you hand a towel back at a pool.
Then he took my free hand, turned it over, and poured the quarters into it.
Six dollars. Still warm from his fist.
“Toward your rent,” he said.
Dermot was ten feet away with the bank bag under his arm.
The old man walked right past him. He didn’t look at him and he didn’t look at the 1979 picture this time either. He said “Night, sir,” to the floor, pulled the door Traci hadn’t locked yet, and the bell went, and he was gone.
I was still holding the photograph.
Pencil side up. DERMOT. FIRST CUT. 1981.
I closed my fingers over it before Dermot got to my station.
“What’d he give you?”
I opened the other hand. Quarters.
He looked at them for a while, like they owed him something.
“That’s not forty-five,” he said, and went back to the drawer.
I stood there with my boss’s first haircut in my fist.
A man carries a picture for thirty-five years. Why does he hand it to a stranger and walk out?
The crack in the vinyl
I’ve rented chair three at Mahoney’s for four years. Two hundred and seventy-five a week, due Saturday, and Dermot writes it on a yellow sheet taped inside the supply closet door.
He writes everything on that sheet. Towels. Coffee filters. Once he charged Cierra eleven dollars for a jug of Barbicide she knocked off the counter with her hip.
That’s the Dermot people in Altoona get. Prices on a board. No tabs. A handshake at the Rotary breakfast that’s over before you’re ready.
He’s got one rule that’s harder than the money. My first year, a kid named Hamza had one beer in the back after close on a Friday. One. Dermot didn’t yell. He had Hamza’s station boxed up on the curb by Monday morning.
Chair three is the old one. The other four are black, hydraulic, ordered out of a catalog. Mine is red, with chrome gone cloudy, and that split in the vinyl on the right arm.
I asked him twice to get it redone. The second time I had a quote, a hundred and ninety from an upholstery guy in Hollidaysburg, and I said I’d go halves.
“That chair stays like it is,” he said.
“It pinches my clients.”
“Then they can sit in somebody else’s.”
The footrest is off, too. Somebody bolted it back on years ago with a bolt that’s a different color from the rest, and it sits a quarter inch crooked. I’ve caught my shoelace on it more times than I can count.
And there’s the little mirror.
Over the register, behind Traci’s desk, there’s a round mirror about the size of a dinner plate, older than anything else in the place. From the register it shows you exactly one thing. Chair three. I use it all day from the other direction. Somebody comes in, I look up into it and I can see if Traci’s waving me over.
Every Saturday after close, Dermot takes the 1979 picture down off the wall, wipes the glass with his own sleeve, and hangs it back up. Every Saturday. I’d always figured it was a business thing. Heritage. Something to point at for the Rotary guys.
The radio in the back had gone to a polka station. Nobody in that shop has ever liked polka.
I put the photograph in my apron pocket and swept up a pile of gray hair that had been somebody’s grandfather’s beard for a long time.
Dermot zipped the bank bag and didn’t look up.
“Fifty,” he said. “It’s going on the sheet.”
The Sheetz on Plank Road
I found him because of the heater smell.
Twenty minutes after close I pulled into the Sheetz on Plank Road for gas, and down at the far end by the air pump there was a brown Buick with the engine running and the windows fogged from the inside. A blanket balled up on the back seat. A grocery bag of clothes on the floor.
I knocked on the driver’s glass.
He rolled it down two inches. Then all the way, when he saw it was me.
The rearview was still tilted down at the seat. He’d been sitting there looking at the haircut.
“You forgot this,” I said, and held the photograph out.
He didn’t take it.
“I didn’t forget it.”
“It’s yours.”
“It’s his,” he said. “I just held on to it.”
The pump behind me was dinging because I’d left the nozzle in.
“Come Thursday,” I said. “You said nine. We open at nine on Thursdays. Dermot opens himself. I’ll be there early. I’ll walk in with you.”
That was my whole plan. Stand next to him so Dermot would have to look at him with somebody watching.
He shook his head.
“I saw his face tonight, honey.”
“He doesn’t know it’s you.”
He looked at me the way you look at a kid who just told you the dog’s only sleeping.
Then he reached into the cup holder and came out with a coin. Bronze, worn smooth on one side from a thumb. He turned it so the light from the pumps hit the number.
Eleven months.
“Eleven months,” he said. “And the first thing I do with it is walk in there counting quarters like a bum. In front of his people. His mother was right about me.”
“She told you to stand up straight. You did.”
“I stood up straight in a parking lot.” He put the coin back. “Give him the picture or don’t. Throw it out. I don’t care. Just don’t tell him I cried.”
“I’m not throwing it out.”
“Then you’ve got a picture of your boss,” he said, and rolled the window up.
I stood there until the glass fogged over again.
I went home and didn’t sleep.
At 3 a.m. I was at my kitchen table with a screaming four-year-old who had my boss’s ears.
Traci’s mug
Wednesday Traci was in before me, like always, eating Cheerios out of a coffee mug at the front desk.
I waited until Cierra was in back with the shampoo bowl running.
“Who owned this place before Dermot?”
Traci kept chewing. “Russo. Why.”
“Before Russo.”
She put the mug down.
Traci has worked that desk since she was twenty-two. She came with the building when Dermot bought it, same as the sink and the pole out front.
“Who’d you cut last night, Jade?”
I didn’t say anything. She looked over at chair three. Then she looked up into the little round mirror, and back at me in it.
“Hell,” she said.
She told me low, with one eye on the hallway. Russo bought the shop in ’91 off a man who needed the money in a hurry and didn’t argue the price. Ran it as Russo’s for eighteen years. In 2009, when Russo’s knees went, Dermot walked in with a loan from the credit union and offered him forty thousand more than the place was worth.
“Russo signed before Dermot could change his mind,” Traci said. “Dermot’s still paying that note. He’ll be paying it when he’s sixty.”
“Forty thousand over.”
“First week, he threw out every chair in here. Every one. Except that one.” She pointed with her spoon. “Russo had it down the basement under a tarp with the footrest busted off. Dermot carried it up those stairs himself. Had a guy from the muffler shop bolt the footrest back on.”
The crooked bolt. Four years of my shoelace.
“So he misses him,” I said.
She gave me a look I didn’t like.
“Don’t do that. Don’t make it a greeting card.” She leaned in. “You weren’t here. His mom worked doubles at the hospital, and at eleven years old that boy was in here sweeping for Russo so they could keep the phone on. Sweeping his own father’s floor for somebody else. I watched him do it.”
“He’s got a chip, Traci. Eleven months.”
“Then he can knock on Dermot’s door like a grown man. He doesn’t need a girl with clippers to do it for him.”
“He’s not going to knock. He told me.”
“Then that’s his answer, and it’s not yours to change.” She picked the mug back up. “Put that picture in the trash, honey. You rent a chair here. You don’t own one thing in this building.”
6:40, Wednesday
All day Dermot talked to me through the appointment book and nothing else. Your ten-thirty’s here. Your two o’clock canceled. He walked past chair three maybe forty times and never looked at it once.
At close, Cierra left first. Traci locked the door this time and turned the deadbolt, and she didn’t say goodnight to me.
Then it was the two of us.
Dermot was at the register with the drawer out, counting, his back to the room. I was wiping down my station. The photograph was still in my apron. I’d moved it from pocket to pocket all day like it was going to burn through.
“Jade.”
“Yeah.”
He didn’t turn around. He was looking up.
Into the round mirror.
At me, in chair three.
“Give me what he gave you.”
“I gave you the quarters. They’re on your sheet.”
“Not the quarters.” Now he turned around. “The picture. He took it out of the pocket with the threads hanging. Held it out to you over his shoulder. I watched the whole thing.”
I hadn’t said one word to anybody about a picture. Not to him. Not to Traci until she guessed.
He’d been watching in that mirror the entire time. Counting a drawer that didn’t need counting.
“You knew it was him,” I said.
He put the bank bag on the counter and set both his hands flat on top of it.
“I knew when he said ‘yes sir,'” he said. “You know who taught me to say that? To every customer that walked in that door? Yes sir. No sir. Sorry to hold you up, sir. I was five years old, standing right there on a milk crate.”
He nodded at the spot by the 1979 picture.
I took the photograph out of my apron.
I held it up so he could see the front. The red chair. The scream. The man with the dark beard and the clippers and the fishhook scar.
He came around the counter. He didn’t reach for it. He stopped about four feet away and looked at it like it might go off.
Then he put his hand up behind his own left ear, and rubbed at nothing.
“Turn it over,” he said.
The appointment book
I turned it over. DERMOT. FIRST CUT. 1981.
He read it twice. His mouth moved on the second time.
Then he started talking, and he didn’t stop for a long time.
“You want to know what I remember about that chair? It’s not the footrest. It’s Fridays. Every Friday from the time I was eight, he’d close up and sit in that chair with a bottle in a paper bag and cry at that mirror. I did my homework under the counter. I counted the empties in the trash so I could tell my mother how many. She used to ask me. How many, Dermot. Like I was the one keeping the books.”
He picked up the yellow sheet off the counter, looked at it, and put it down again.
“He sold this place and didn’t tell her. She found out when the sign changed. She drove by on her way to work and it said Russo’s. And then two years later the money was gone, and he was gone, and I’m in here at eleven sweeping my father’s hair off my father’s floor for Russo.”
“Dermot.”
“No. You put him in my chair. You did that. In front of Traci. In front of Cierra.” He pointed at the floor by the door. “He comes in here with QUARTERS. Thirty-five years and he comes in with quarters and that coat, on a Tuesday, right before close, so I’ve got to look like the worst man in Altoona in front of my own people. You think that’s an accident? He knew exactly what he was doing. He always knew.”
“He’s got eleven months.”
“I know what he’s got.” He laughed, and it wasn’t anything like a laugh. “You think I didn’t know that Buick?”
I didn’t answer.
“Three mornings this month,” he said. “Three. Parked across the street when I come in to open. Engine running. I stand behind that door with the lights off and wait for him to get out. And he doesn’t. And I don’t go out there. And then he drives off and I flip the sign and I cut hair all day.”
He was looking at chair three when he said it.
I went to the counter and opened the appointment book to Thursday.
Nine o’clock was blank. Dermot’s column. He always keeps the first hour Thursday open for walk-ins.
I took the pen off the string and wrote in my column instead. 9:00. Mahoney. Cut and beard. Chair 3.
He watched me do it.
“Cross that out.”
I put the pen down.
“Cross it out, Jade. I’m not asking.”
I took the photograph and laid it face up on the open book, right on top of the nine o’clock, and I took the six dollars in quarters out of my apron and set them beside it.
“You put him in that chair Thursday,” he said, “and you’re done here. I mean it. Clear your station. I’ll have your spot rented by the weekend. You know there’s a list.”
There is a list. Two girls from the beauty school have been asking about my chair since spring.
“Okay,” I said.
“Okay what?”
I got my coat off the hook and went out the back. Behind me the deadbolt turned.
At the Sheetz on Plank Road, the brown Buick was down by the air pump with its windows fogged. I knocked on the glass and he rolled it down two inches.
“Nine o’clock,” I said. “My chair. It’s in the book.”
Thursday, 8:58
I came in at eight-thirty with two empty boxes from the State Store.
Traci saw them and went back to her mug.
Four years fit in those two boxes. My clippers and my guards. My shears in their case. A dish of bobby pins nobody ever used. The picture of my nephew I’d had taped to the corner of my mirror since my first week.
Dermot was at the register with his back to the room. He hadn’t said a word to me.
The appointment book was open on the counter to Thursday. My handwriting at nine. He hadn’t crossed it out.
The photograph wasn’t on the book anymore.
It was tucked into the edge of the little round mirror over the register. The scream facing out.
At 8:58 the brown Buick pulled up across the street and the engine went off.
He got out. Short gray beard. His jacket pocket was sewn back on with black thread, the stitches big and crooked, like he’d done it in the car with the dome light on.
He stood on the sidewalk under the window with his name on it for a long time.
Then he crossed and came in, and the bell went.
He walked to the counter, past Traci, and stood in front of Dermot. He reached into the sewn pocket. Six dollars in quarters, the same six I’d left on that book. He set them down beside the appointment book and started stacking them. Little towers of four.
Dermot looked at the quarters.
Then up at the mirror. Then at chair three, empty, my station bare down to the Barbicide jar.
I picked up the first box.
Dermot came around the counter. He took a cape off the hook, his name across the back of it, and shook it out once.
“Sit down,” he said. “Your neck’s a mess.”
I carried my box out the door the old man came in, and let the bell ring behind me.
If this one stayed with you, pass it to somebody who’s been sitting outside a door with the engine running.
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