The boy I loved asked me for one picture with nobody else in it, and eight days later it was the face of his mother’s fundraiser: $11,480 from strangers for my chemo. I’d never been sick a day. She smiled and said, “Honey, you’re helping more people than you know.” Then I saw the first name on the donor list.
I was sixteen, and if anybody at school saw that page, I’d be the girl with cancer.
If anybody found out the truth, I’d be the girl who faked it.
Tanner sat behind me in chemistry.
He’d lean up to borrow my eraser and then keep it.
He walked me to the bus. He saved me the chair by the heater in the library. He texted me at midnight about nothing at all.
He never once asked me out.
My friends said he was shy.
I said he was slow.
I’d decided to wait him out.
Then one Monday in October he caught me by the lockers after sixth period.
“Can you send me a picture?” he said. “Just you. Nobody else in it.”
“For what?”
He scratched the back of his neck. “Just for me.”
I went home and changed my shirt four times.
My mom, Isabel, leaned in my doorway eating saltines out of the sleeve while I took nineteen of them by the window.
“He better be worth all this,” she said.
I sent the one where my hair was down and I wasn’t trying too hard to smile.
He wrote back a thumbs-up.
That was all. ONE thumbs-up.
I told myself he was saving the rest for in person.
The next Thursday I walked to his house after school with his graphing calculator. He’d left it in my bag.
His mother, Giovanna, opened the door in a pink velour tracksuit, sunglasses pushed up into her hair.
“He’s in the shower,” she said. “Wait in the kitchen, sweetie.”
His little brother Lukas was at the table eating dry cereal straight out of the box.
The counter was covered.
A stack of flyers. A coffee can with a slot cut in the lid.
My face was on every single one.
The picture I’d sent Tanner. My hair down. My not-quite smile.
Above it, in big purple letters: PRAYERS FOR SYDNEY.
Below it, smaller: Stage 3. Sixteen years old. Every dollar counts.
Lukas looked at me, then at the flyer, then at me again.
“You don’t look sick,” he said.
I couldn’t answer him.
Giovanna’s laptop sat open beside the can.
The same picture, only bigger. A blue bar almost full. $11,480 raised of $15,000.
Under it, a list of names.
The first one was Esther Vance. $4,000. Praying for my baby girl every night.
My grandmother.
Grandma Esther, who still wrote checks at the grocery store.
Giovanna came back in and found me reading.
She didn’t close the laptop.
She took a folded five off the counter and pushed it through the slot.
“Lady at the nail place gave me that this morning,” she said.
“I don’t have cancer,” I said.
“I know, honey.”
“YOU USED MY FACE.”
“And look how far it’s gone.” She tapped the blue bar with one long pink nail. “Half of Joliet has seen this page. Nobody gives to a forty-four-year-old with a bad back. They give to a pretty girl.”
Tanner was in the doorway with wet hair.
He looked at the flyers. He didn’t look at me.
“Did you know?” I said.
“She told me it was for a school thing,” he said.
“Tanner.”
“She asked me to get one of you alone.” He picked at the doorframe. “She said you’d never see it.”
So that was what “just for me” meant.
Giovanna laughed through her nose.
“Sweetie, you two were never a thing,” she said. “Don’t make this about him.”
“My GRANDMOTHER gave you FOUR THOUSAND dollars.”
“Then your grandmother’s a good woman,” she said. “You should be proud of her.”
I took one of the flyers off the stack.
I don’t know why. My hands needed something to hold.
I walked home the long way so nobody would see me crying.
My mom’s car wasn’t in the driveway.
Grandma Esther’s was.
She was in our kitchen with her coat still on and a foil pan of baked ziti on the stove.
She got up when I came in and held my face in both hands like it might come apart.
“Why didn’t you tell me, baby?” she said.
“Grandma, I’m NOT SICK.”
She didn’t hear it.
Or she wouldn’t let herself.
“I sold Grandpa’s truck,” she said. “Burt would’ve wanted it to go to you.”
That truck had sat in her garage for six years. She went out and started it every Sunday so the battery wouldn’t die.
“Grandma, where’s the rest of it?” I said.
She patted her purse.
“Right here. That nice woman said the hospital needs the other three thousand by Friday,” she said. “So I went to the bank this morning.”
Her phone lit up on the counter next to the ziti.
A text from Giovanna: Still on for tomorrow at ten?
Ten O’Clock
“She’s coming here tomorrow,” Grandma said. “For the money.”
I put my hand over her phone before she could answer.
“Don’t tell her yes.”
“Baby, she needs to know somebody will be home.”
“For a hospital bill that doesn’t exist.”
Grandma moved my hand. She didn’t shove it. She lifted it by the wrist, the way she used to when I reached for a stove burner.
That almost made me cry again.
“Let me call your mother,” she said.
“Yes. Please.”
Then she looked at the flyer I was holding.
“Maybe we’d better speak to Giovanna first. Keep your mother out of it until we know.”
“My mother knows whether I have cancer.”
“That’s not what I mean.”
“What do you mean?”
She pulled her purse onto her lap.
The clasp made a little click. Three thousand dollars behind a clasp with a fake pearl on it. Grandma wouldn’t carry that much cash across a grocery-store parking lot, but she was ready to give it to a woman who spelled chemotherapy correctly.
I laid the flyer over her phone.
“Read it.”
“I read it, honey.”
“Out loud.”
She got as far as my name.
Her mouth stayed open. Her thumb rubbed the corner where I’d bent the paper.
“She said you didn’t want people fussing,” Grandma said. “That you wanted school to stay normal.”
“Then why did she put me on the internet?”
Grandma looked down at the phone.
I pulled mine out and called Mom myself. She answered on the second ring.
“Are you home?”
“Yes. Grandma’s here.”
“Good. Tell her I got her message about the ziti.”
“Mom, somebody’s collecting money saying I have cancer.”
The car noise stopped.
“What?”
I read the flyer. Every word. Grandma tried to touch my arm and I moved away.
Mom said she was pulling over.
“Put your grandmother on.”
Grandma took my phone with both hands.
“Isabel, before you get upset, she told me you knew.”
My mother was loud enough that I didn’t need the speaker.
“WHO told you I knew?”
Grandma shut her eyes.
I reached for her purse. She held it against her coat.
“Don’t,” she said. “That’s for you.”
Burt’s Truck
That Thursday afternoon, while Mom drove home, Grandma opened the messages from Giovanna.
I sat beside her instead of across from her. She still had the purse between her feet.
“Start at the beginning,” I said.
Giovanna had sent the fundraiser with a message about respecting our privacy. Grandma had answered with questions. Which hospital? Could she drive me? Did my mother need help at home?
The replies kept bringing her back to money.
“She said your mom was handling the appointments,” Grandma said. “She said asking you about it would make things harder.”
“You ask me whether I ate breakfast while I’m eating breakfast.”
“I know.”
“Grandma.”
“I KNOW.”
Her phone shook. I put my hand under it.
There was a picture she’d sent Giovanna of Grandpa’s truck in the garage.
“You sent her that?”
“She asked whether I had anybody who could help.”
“So you sold it.”
“I couldn’t have you needing something while that thing sat there.”
She opened her purse and took out the cash.
The bills were still in the bank envelope. She pushed it toward me, then pulled it back as if I might think she was paying me to stop talking.
“He would’ve driven you anywhere,” she said.
I wanted to tell her we’d get the truck back. It was the sort of promise you make when you can’t stand the face in front of you.
Instead I said, “I don’t need to go anywhere.”
She nodded once.
The front door opened. Mom came into the kitchen with her keys still in her hand.
“Show me.”
Grandma handed her the phone.
Mom read without sitting down. She stopped at Grandma’s donation and put her keys on the counter so carefully that I wished she’d thrown them.
“You sold Dad’s truck without calling me?”
“She said you had enough on your mind.”
“She doesn’t know what’s on my mind.”
Grandma reached for the phone.
“There’s more.”
Giovanna had sent her a little video thanking the donors. She stood behind the same coffee can, one hand over her chest.
Grandma turned the sound down before it finished.
“She wanted me there tomorrow,” she said. “A few words from the family. She said people like to hear from the family.”
Mom looked at me.
I picked at the corner of the flyer until a piece came off.
Grandma had also sent the page to people she knew. Under it she’d written that she was my grandmother and that the fundraiser was real.
“How many?” Mom said.
Grandma scrolled.
I stopped picking at the paper.
Her name was underneath mine everywhere.
The Calculator
At six that Thursday, Mom drove me back to Tanner’s house.
Grandma stayed at ours. Mom put the bank envelope in a drawer before we left, with Grandma standing beside her. Nobody called it confiscating anything. We were all being very polite around three thousand dollars.
I still had Tanner’s calculator.
It had been in my bag through the whole thing. Apparently I could discover my own imaginary cancer and still worry about returning school supplies.
Mom rang the bell.
Giovanna opened the door with the smile she used on people she hadn’t spoken to yet.
“Isabel. I was just going to call you.”
“Get your laptop.”
“Let’s not do this on the porch.”
“Then move.”
Tanner was in the kitchen. His hair was dry now. He stood up when I came in, then sat down when his mother put a hand on his shoulder.
I set the calculator in front of him.
He pushed it toward the middle of the counter.
Mom held up the flyer.
“Take this down. Stop accepting money. Give every donation back.”
Giovanna pulled out a chair for her.
Mom stayed standing.
“Of course we’re going to sort this out,” Giovanna said. “But you’re frightening her.”
“She can hear you,” I said.
Giovanna gave me the smile again, only smaller.
“Your grandmother got carried away. I didn’t tell her to sell anything.”
“You told her there was a hospital bill,” Mom said.
“I told her we needed help.”
“You put my daughter’s face above Stage Three.”
Giovanna sat. She crossed one leg over the other and smoothed her pants over her knee.
“I have bills too, Isabel.”
Mom stared at her.
“That doesn’t make me heartless,” Giovanna said. “People were offering. I didn’t go into anybody’s bank account.”
“You went into my grandmother’s garage,” I said.
Tanner covered his mouth with his hand.
Giovanna turned to him.
“Bring the laptop.”
He didn’t move.
“Tanner.”
He brought it from the other end of the counter. The fundraiser was still open.
Mom reached toward it. Giovanna turned it around.
“I’m not giving you my passwords.”
“Nobody asked for them.”
“You just reached for my computer.”
“Stop the donations.”
Giovanna clicked through the page while keeping the screen pointed away from us. Then she turned it just far enough for Mom to see that donations were closed.
The number still said $11,480.
“And the money?” Mom said.
“It’s still there.”
“Then return it.”
“That takes time.”
“We have time.”
Giovanna closed the laptop.
The sound made Tanner jump.
“I’m not going to be bullied in my own kitchen.”
I wanted to knock the coffee can off the counter. I could see the five-dollar bill through the slot. One folded corner, sticking up like it was trying to leave too.
Mom took a photograph of the flyer and the can.
Giovanna stood.
“Don’t photograph my house.”
“Then stop printing pictures of my daughter.”
Tanner reached for my sleeve as we turned to go.
“Can we talk?”
I stopped. Mom waited by the door.
He kept his eyes on the calculator.
“I can get her to fix it,” he said. “She listens to me when nobody’s yelling.”
I wanted him to say he’d been scared. I wanted something small enough to forgive.
“Tell people I didn’t know,” I said.
He nodded.
“Tonight.”
“I will.”
Then he held out his hand.
“Can you send me our texts?”
The Part He Sent
Back home that Thursday evening, I sent Tanner the messages around the photograph.
There weren’t many.
His request. My picture. The thumbs-up. A message later that night asking whether he could show his mother because she’d said I looked nice.
I’d written, Sure lol.
That was my permission. A picture shown to somebody’s mother. I remembered being pleased she’d asked.
I sat on my bedroom floor while Mom and Grandma talked downstairs. My phone stayed in my hand.
Tanner wrote, I’ll handle it.
I nearly answered with a heart.
Even then.
I put the phone facedown on my knee so I couldn’t do anything stupid with my thumbs.
A few minutes later, he sent me a picture of the fundraiser’s new update.
Giovanna had written that there had been confusion about the wording and that the family had been involved from the beginning.
Underneath was part of our conversation.
Can I show Mom?
Sure lol.
Everything above it was gone.
I went downstairs without getting off the floor properly. One leg had fallen asleep, so I came into the kitchen dragging it like a badly made Halloween costume.
Mom took the phone.
Grandma leaned over her shoulder.
“That’s not all of it,” I said.
Mom scrolled back through my conversation with Tanner.
“I can see that.”
I called him.
He answered with, “Before you get mad.”
A sentence that ought to disconnect the call by itself.
“You said you’d tell them.”
“I did tell her you didn’t know about the cancer part.”
“The cancer PART?”
“She said the update would stop people asking you things.”
“She used my text to say I helped.”
“She didn’t say that exactly.”
Mom held out her hand for the phone. I kept it.
“Did you send her that piece?”
“I sent her what you sent me.”
“Did you help her cut it?”
He didn’t answer.
I stood with my back against the refrigerator. The handle pressed into my shoulder.
“Tanner.”
“She was crying.”
I looked at Grandma.
She had both hands over her mouth.
“So was I,” I said.
He started saying my name, and I ended the call.
Mom pulled out a chair. I stayed where I was.
Grandma reached for my phone.
“Let me speak to her.”
“Which one?”
“Giovanna. If she gives the four thousand back, we can tell everyone it was a mistake.”
Mom turned around.
“No.”
“I’m trying to keep this from following her.”
“My face is already on it,” I said.
“We could say I misunderstood.”
“You didn’t.”
“People won’t remember every word.”
“I will.”
Grandma’s hand dropped.
I hated that I’d hurt her. I hated that I was standing there trying to make her feel better while a woman across town was using my photograph like a coupon.
Mom sat beside Grandma.
“She doesn’t have to agree to a lie because you believed one.”
Grandma started crying then. She tried to do it into her sleeve, which somehow made it worse.
“I told everybody,” she said. “I told them I knew.”
Mom put an arm around her.
I went upstairs.
Halfway up, my phone lit again. Tanner had added the fundraiser update to our chemistry class’s group chat.
Not a correction. The cropped messages.
Then a girl from class sent me two words.
You knew?
I sat down on the stairs.
The picture I’d taken for one boy was now in the hands of people who’d see me at school the next morning.
I typed, No.
Then I deleted it.
I didn’t know how to fit any of this into a box that small.
Friday Morning
On Friday, Mom called me out of school and stayed home.
At nine forty, I was on the couch in yesterday’s sweatshirt. Grandma sat beside me with her purse on her knees.
The cash was still in the kitchen drawer.
My phone kept lighting up. Mom had offered to take it, but I wanted to know what people were saying. I also wanted never to see it again.
Sixteen is a very practical age.
Grandma had answered Giovanna’s message the night before. Come at ten. Isabel will be here.
At nine fifty-eight, Giovanna knocked.
Tanner stood behind her holding the laptop.
I got up.
“Why is he here?”
“He was involved,” Mom said. “He can be here for this.”
Giovanna came in carrying the coffee can and the remaining flyers in a grocery bag. She set them by the door as if returning borrowed baking pans.
“I’ve brought everything,” she said.
“You put another lie online,” Mom said.
“I was trying to calm things down.”
“By making it look like I agreed,” I said.
Giovanna took off her coat.
“I’m not going to argue about what a teenager meant by a text.”
“Then don’t publish it.”
She looked at Mom.
“Can we speak alone?”
“No,” Mom said.
Grandma stood up, then sat back down.
Giovanna opened the laptop on the low shelf beside the couch.
“I can return Esther’s donation right now. Four thousand dollars. Then we can all stop making this worse.”
“And the others?” Mom said.
“Those people aren’t in this room.”
She said it so easily.
I could still see the lady’s five-dollar bill through the lid of the can.
Grandma leaned forward.
“If she returns mine, I can contact the people I sent it to.”
Giovanna nodded at her.
“Exactly. Esther understands.”
Grandma’s shoulders rose at the praise. Then she looked at me and they dropped.
Tanner stood by the doorway.
“Tell your mother what you told me,” I said.
He looked at her.
Giovanna kept typing.
“Tell her you said it was for school.”
“I told you I thought that.”
“Tell them why you cut the texts.”
Mom moved between him and the front door when he reached for the handle.
“Nobody’s keeping you here,” she said. “But you can answer her before you go.”
He took his hand away.
“I thought if they saw she said yes, they’d stop bothering her.”
“They’re asking whether I stole money.”
“I didn’t know they’d do that.”
“What did you think they’d do?”
Giovanna pushed the laptop toward Grandma.
“Four thousand back. Right here. We can do it now.”
Grandma bent over the screen.
For a second, I thought she was going to take it and thank her.
Then Giovanna said, “And Esther can put up something saying we’ve worked it out. People trust her.”
Grandma stopped moving.
I went to the kitchen drawer and took out the bank envelope. I held it so Giovanna could see.
Her fingers lifted from the keyboard.
“That was supposed to be today,” she said.
“Yes.”
“I made arrangements.”
“For my chemo?”
She looked at Mom.
“I can’t speak if she keeps doing that.”
Mom crossed her arms.
Giovanna reached for the laptop.
“Fine. I return Esther’s money. I close the page. You can explain the rest however you like.”
The picture was still on the screen.
My picture. Her words underneath. Tanner’s little slice of our conversation beside them.
She could close it before anybody heard me.
“Don’t close it,” I said.
A Few Words From The Family
It was ten twenty on Friday when I put the envelope back in the drawer.
I came out carrying Grandma’s phone.
“Show me what you promised her for today,” I said.
Grandma opened the messages. She needed two tries because she kept hitting the wrong line.
Giovanna stood up.
“This has gone far enough.”
Mom stayed in front of the laptop.
Grandma handed me her phone.
Under the message asking her to come at ten, Giovanna had written that a few words from the family would reassure everyone. Grandma was supposed to hold the envelope for the camera.
There was more.
If she’s shy, you can speak for her. Just having you there will help people know it’s genuine.
I put the phone beside the laptop.
“You wanted her to say it was real.”
“She believed it was.”
“Because you told her.”
“I can’t control what people believe.”
Grandma stood so fast her purse fell off her lap.
Tanner picked it up. She took it from him without looking at him.
“You said you knew Isabel,” she said.
“I do know Isabel.”
“You said she’d asked you to help.”
Giovanna opened her mouth.
Grandma held up one hand.
“No. I read it again.”
I looked at the little video still on the fundraiser page. Giovanna beside the can. Her hand on her chest.
Grandma was supposed to be in the next one. My grandmother, with the last of Grandpa’s truck in an envelope.
“Let’s make your video,” I said.
Mom turned toward me.
“You don’t have to put yourself out there again.”
“I know.”
Giovanna sat down slowly.
“That’s sensible. We can explain that things got confused.”
“No.”
Tanner reached for the grocery bag.
I took the flyer out before he could fold it.
“We use this,” I said. “And we say what happened.”
Giovanna shook her head.
“I’m not filming some attack on myself.”
“Then I’ll film it without you. Grandma will send it to every person she sent your page to.”
Grandma picked up her phone.
“Every one,” she said.
Giovanna looked from the phone to the flyer.
She’d heard me say I wasn’t sick in two kitchens now. She’d smiled through both.
This time she sat back down.
I propped my phone beside her laptop. Mom moved closer to me, but left the space in front of the camera clear.
My face filled the screen again.
I nearly turned it over.
Then I pressed record.
The Purple Letters
“I don’t have cancer,” I said to the phone.
My mouth looked wrong when I spoke. I’d spent nineteen pictures trying to look like somebody Tanner might want. Now I had to look like somebody strangers would believe.
I held up the flyer.
“This photograph was sent privately to Tanner. I didn’t agree to this fundraiser. I found it yesterday.”
Giovanna leaned forward.
“There was never any intention to hurt her. I need people to understand that. I’ve been under a great deal of pressure, and the family did know there was a collection.”
Mom moved into the picture.
“I didn’t know. I’m her mother.”
Grandma stood beside me.
“I gave four thousand dollars because Giovanna told me my granddaughter needed chemotherapy. I told other people it was real. I was wrong.”
She put her hand on my shoulder.
Giovanna reached toward the phone.
“Stop recording a minute.”
I moved it back.
“Why?”
“Because this is getting emotional, and people are going to take it out of context.”
“Which part?”
She pointed at the flyer.
“I didn’t write that to make you look bad.”
“Did anybody tell you I had cancer?”
She looked at Mom.
Mom said nothing.
“Did anybody?” I said.
“No. But I was going to explain, once we had enough to help everybody. I wasn’t going to keep every dollar. You act like I bought myself a boat.”
Grandma took her hand off my shoulder.
“Who was everybody?”
Giovanna turned to her.
“You offered me the money.”
“For her treatment.”
“And I’m giving it back.”
“All of it,” Grandma said.
“Your four thousand, yes.”
“All the money.”
Giovanna pushed her chair backward. It scraped hard enough that Tanner stepped away from the doorway.
“This family is standing in my face over money I haven’t even spent. I stopped the donations when you asked. I brought the flyers. What else do you want?”
I put the flyer beside the phone.
“Say I didn’t know.”
“I can’t say what you knew.”
Tanner made a sound from the doorway.
Giovanna turned.
“Don’t start.”
He looked at the camera, then at me.
“She didn’t know.”
“You’re not helping,” his mother said.
He rubbed his hands down his pants.
“I asked for the picture. She thought it was for me. I showed Mom.”
Giovanna pointed at him.
“And you told me she said I could use it.”
“I said she said you could see it.”
“Don’t change your story now.”
“You cut it,” he said. “You told me to cut off the top because people didn’t need our personal stuff.”
“Because they don’t.”
“Then we shouldn’t have posted any of it.”
I hated that he could say that now. I wanted the boy from the library back for about half a second, and then I remembered the stairs.
“You sent it to our class,” I said.
His eyes filled.
“I know.”
Giovanna stood.
“I’m not sitting here while my son gets humiliated.”
Mom stepped toward her.
“You printed my daughter’s face.”
Giovanna sat down again.
I stopped the recording. My hand shook enough that I hit the screen twice.
Nobody moved while I played it back.
Giovanna tried to speak during the part where Grandma said she’d been wrong. Mom lifted a finger toward the phone and Giovanna stopped.
When it finished, I said, “That goes on the page.”
“Absolutely not.”
“It goes from us either way.”
“You don’t understand what people will do with that.”
I held up my phone.
She looked away first.
Grandma moved the laptop toward her.
“Put it where you put the other one.”
Giovanna wiped under her eyes. She took a tissue from her bag and folded it before using it again.
“I’ve helped people in this town for years.”
Grandma didn’t answer.
“I brought food when people were sick. I collected clothes. I did all that.”
“Post it,” Mom said.
Giovanna uploaded the video.
I stood beside her and read the words she typed above it. Her first version said there had been a misunderstanding.
“Delete that,” I said.
She pressed the key so hard her nail slipped.
Mom didn’t write the correction for her. Neither did Grandma.
Giovanna sat over the keyboard until she put down that she’d created a fundraiser for an illness I didn’t have, without my or my mother’s permission.
Then she posted it.
Grandma sent the video to the people she’d contacted. She didn’t ask me to keep her part out.
Tanner sat on the arm of a chair and wrote to the class group. He showed me before he sent it.
I didn’t know she wasn’t involved sounded like another small place for him to hide.
“You did know by yesterday,” I said.
He erased it.
He wrote that I’d sent him a private picture. That I’d never agreed to the fundraiser. That the cropped messages he’d shared didn’t show what we’d been talking about.
He sent it while I stood beside him.
Giovanna kept looking at the number on her page.
“Once I refund these, I can’t take it back.”
Nobody answered.
She opened the donations and began returning them.
Grandma sat down beside her. Mom stood behind me. Each time a refund showed as requested, Grandma checked it against the list.
Giovanna’s four thousand dollars from my grandmother went first.
The rest took longer.
When the last one was submitted, the total was $11,480.00.
Giovanna shut the laptop.
“I hope that satisfies you.”
“Check the can,” I said.
The Folded Five
Before noon that Friday, Giovanna opened the coffee can on our floor.
The folded five fell out. Nothing else.
She picked it up and smoothed it against her knee.
“That woman doesn’t even know your name,” she said.
“It’s on the can.”
Mom held out her hand for the lid. Giovanna gave it to her.
I peeled my photograph off the side. The tape took some paper with it, so half my face stayed stuck.
Giovanna tried to help.
“Leave it,” I said.
She put her hands in her lap.
Grandma took the bank envelope out of the drawer and put it inside her purse.
Three thousand dollars. Still hers.
Giovanna’s eyes followed it.
“You know I really do have problems,” she said.
Grandma fastened the clasp.
“I know you do.”
Tanner took the grocery bag to the door. Mom kept one flyer with the records of the refunds. The others went home with Giovanna to be destroyed, after Mom photographed the whole stack.
Giovanna stood in the doorway holding the five.
“What am I supposed to tell her?”
“The same thing you said here,” Mom said.
She left without asking for a hug.
Tanner stayed on the step.
“I’m sorry,” he said.
I stood inside the screen door.
“I should’ve told you when I saw it. I should’ve stopped her.”
“Yes.”
“Can I talk to you Monday?”
“About chemistry.”
He nodded, then tried again.
“I really did like your picture.”
“You don’t get another.”
I closed the door.
Grandma was still standing in the hall with her purse against her stomach.
“I sold his truck,” she said.
I put my arms around her.
She held me so hard that the clasp pressed through my sweatshirt.
“I was trying to get you well.”
“I know, Grandma.”
She cried against my shoulder. Mom came around us both.
For once, nobody told anybody to calm down.
Nineteen Pictures
The following Thursday, Grandma came over with her phone and made Mom check that the full $4,000 had reached her account.
She sat beside us while we checked the other refund confirmations too. All $11,480.00 had been returned. Giovanna sent a message confirming she’d taken the five dollars back to the woman at the nail place and told her why.
Grandma read it twice.
“Good,” she said.
Then she put her phone away.
At school, I kept the correction on mine. When somebody asked, I showed them what Tanner had written. I didn’t apologize for making them uncomfortable.
He moved seats in chemistry.
I kept my eraser.
That Thursday afternoon, Grandma found me by my bedroom window. I was trying to take a new profile picture because I couldn’t stand seeing the old one anymore.
She stayed in the doorway.
“Want help?”
“You know where the camera is?”
“I’ve taken pictures before.”
“Last Christmas you took fourteen of your thumb.”
“It was in most of the family events.”
I laughed before I could stop myself.
She came in and took my phone.
The first picture cut off the top of my head. In the second, I looked like I’d been asked to identify a smell.
“Maybe it’s the subject,” Grandma said.
“Wow.”
“I’m paying you back for Christmas.”
Mom came upstairs carrying a sleeve of saltines.
“Is this a private photo shoot?”
“No,” I said.
Grandma started to hand back the phone.
I pushed it gently toward her.
“Get in it.”
She looked at me.
“With you?”
“Nobody else is charging admission.”
Mom leaned against the window frame. Grandma sat beside me, and I held the phone out.
The first picture was crooked. Grandma was looking at the wrong little circle. Mom had a cracker halfway to her mouth.
I took another.
Then Grandma laughed, and Mom put an arm around her, and I stopped trying to arrange my face.
“There,” Mom said. “That one.”
Grandma reached for her glasses.
“Send it to me, baby.”
I sent it while she was still sitting beside me.
She opened it and touched the screen.
“Oh, look at us.”
I leaned my head against hers and took one more.
If this one got to you, send it to someone who always checks that the people they love are all right.
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