I wound the watch on the 6:12 train leaving the city, twenty turns, the way I do every morning, except that Saturday I’d forgotten until the train was already moving.
Thirty-nine minutes later I was on the platform in Glen Ellyn. Nine minutes after that I turned onto my parents’ street for their 36th anniversary, and their driveway looked like a dealership with a lawn.
Zach’s coupe was parked closest to the porch. Matte gray. A hundred and sixty-eight thousand dollars of it, nose out toward the street. Somebody’s vanity plate behind it said BOSS.
My little brother saw me through the front window. He checked the walk behind me, then the block in both directions, looking for a car. There wasn’t one. Just me with my tote bag. He faced the room again, already grinning.
Mom asked in the hall if I’d taken the train again. Zach asked in the kitchen whether “Caitlin’s little app” was still alive. That’s what my family has called the company I started at twenty-three. I said it was fine. Everyone always takes fine for an answer.
At dinner there were sixteen of us around both leaves of the table. Everybody took a turn bragging: a lake house, a promotion, the coupe, a club with a waiting list. At 7:45 Zach asked how many people I employed. I said three hundred and eighty. He asked if that counted the cat. Aunt Jeanette told me there was no shame in a stable job.
Then Zach lifted his beer. “Somebody pass a hat around for her train fare.”
I laughed with them. I rested my arm on the table, and my sleeve slid back.
At 8:00 Grandpa set his fork down square beside his plate. “Let me look at that watch.”
It went down the table hand to hand. He turned it over twice, and his hands shook.
“Who gave you this?”
“Someone who believed in me. A long time ago.”
He gave it back, stood, and asked all sixteen of us whether a single one of us knew what I’d been building for eleven years.
The back of the case
Nobody answered him.
Dad’s golf friend with the lake house did what men like him do with a silence and coughed into it. Jeanette touched her napkin to her mouth even though she hadn’t eaten anything.
Zach got there first, because he always does.
“An app, Grandpa. She’s been building an app. We’ve covered this. It was in the Christmas card.”
Grandpa kept his eyes on me. “Turn it over, Caitlin. Read them the back.”
I wanted to say no. I wanted to put the watch in my pocket and eat my salmon and catch the 9:40 home. For eleven years, not saying it had been the whole point.
But he was eighty-six and standing up holding the edge of the table, and Mom had both hands pressed flat on the tablecloth like she was trying to keep it from floating off.
So I turned it over.
“W. 1987,” I said. “Seven of twelve.“
“And under that?”
“S.M.“
Mom made a sound I’ve only heard her make at funerals.
“S.M.,” Grandpa said. “Salvatore Mercado. I put those initials there with a hand engraver in March of 1987, on the second shift, because Mr. Woodward asked whose work it was and I told him. He said put your name on it, then.”
He sat back down, slowly. Adina pulled his chair in for him. Zach didn’t move.
“Mr. Woodward owned the works,” Grandpa said. He was talking to the whole table, but mostly to his roast. “He had me machine twelve cases out of bar stock. Nothing fancy. He said fancy was for people who didn’t plan on working. Twelve watches, and he gave every one of them to somebody he put his own money behind. A kid who wanted to open a tool shop. A woman with a trucking idea. Twelve people in his whole life.” He tapped the table once. “My last day, in 2004, he came down to the floor wearing his own. Number seven. He let me hold it. Twenty-two years ago.”
He looked at me.
“That one.”
I’d been about to cry since the fork, and I am not a pretty crier. I look like a boiled ham. So I did what I always do and answered the practical question nobody asked.
“His daughter gave it to me,” I said. “Brigid Woodward. In 2015. With a check.”
“How much of a check?” That was my cousin, the regional VP. Give him credit. He’d been wanting to ask all night.
“Enough to rent a room above a dry cleaner and pay two engineers for a year.”
“For an app,” Zach said. He was smiling, but the smile was all on one side now.
“For software that schedules trains,” I said. “Every commuter line into the city runs on it. The 6:12 I took tonight runs on it. Freight lines in four states. A couple of transit systems in Canada.”
Dad set his wine down very carefully.
“Caitlin. Why on earth didn’t you ever say?”
What I nearly said was: because the one time I tried, at Thanksgiving when I was twenty-five, Zach did a voice. The little-app voice. Jeanette laughed so hard she had to excuse herself. And I decided right there that I’d rather be underestimated than explain myself to people who’d already decided.
What I actually said was, “Brigid asked me to keep the watch quiet. Her father never wanted the twelve to be a club. And after a while it just got easier.”
“Easier,” Zach said. “Sure. What’s it worth, then? The company. Ballpark.”
“Zach,” Mom said.
“No, it’s fine, she’s on a roll. Ballpark, Cait. Since we’re finally sharing.”
I looked at him. Thirty-one years old, sleeves pushed up to show a watch that cost more than our parents’ first car. He wanted me to say a small number. He was counting on it.
“The last round valued us at four hundred and ten million dollars.”
The lake-house guy said “Jesus” out loud and then apologized to my mother.
Zach laughed. Short, too loud. “Okay. Okay. And you take the train.”
“I like the train,” I said. “I know who built it.”
Grandpa laughed at that, one bark, and wiped his eyes with the heel of his hand.
That’s when Zach’s phone buzzed, face down by his plate.
It buzzed again.
Adina looked at it the way you’d look at a smoke detector.
Three buzzes
He flipped it over, read it, and put it face down again in one move. He’d probably practiced.
“Work,” he said.
“On a Saturday at eight,” Adina said.
“Car sales is a Saturday business, babe.”
It buzzed a third time. He turned the thing off with his thumb and slid it into his jacket. Then he raised his bottle again, because Zach has only ever had one trick, and it’s the trick where if you’re losing, you make the room laugh before it makes up its mind.
“To Caitlin,” he said. “Who apparently could’ve paid for this whole dinner and let Dad pick up the check anyway.”
Nobody laughed. Two of the golf friends lifted their glasses about an inch and set them down again, like they’d changed their minds halfway.
“Sit down, Zach,” Dad said.
That alone was news. My father has not told my brother to sit down since Zach was nine and stood on the roof of the shed.
Zach didn’t sit. “I’m just saying. She lets everybody think she’s scraping by. She lets Mom think it. Mom’s been slipping her grocery cards for years. Ask her.”
Mom went red to the hairline. It was true. Every birthday there’d be a hundred-dollar card for a grocery store tucked into a sweater. I’d used every one of them. I hadn’t once had the heart to tell her not to.
“I used them,” I said. “Every one. I bought donuts for the night shift in the operations room. They called them Ilana donuts. There’s a whiteboard.”
Mom put her face in her napkin.
Jeanette decided it was time to save the evening, the way she saves evenings, by finding someone smaller to stand on.
“Well, I think it’s a little dishonest,” she said. “Letting your own family worry.”
“You weren’t worried, Jeanette,” Grandpa said. “You were pleased.”
Jeanette opened her mouth and shut it. Her husband studied the ceiling fixture like it had just been installed.
Zach turned to Grandpa, and I saw him decide to do it. I’ve watched that face since he was a baby in a high chair choosing whether to throw the bowl.
“With respect, Grandpa, you made a watch case thirty-nine years ago. You don’t get to stand up at Mom’s anniversary and make a speech about who’s building what. You ran a lathe.”
The dining room went so quiet I heard the clock in the kitchen. It’s a cheap clock. It ticks like it’s mad at you.
Grandpa didn’t stand back up. He just looked at Zach.
“I ran a lathe,” he said. “Thirty-three years. And I never once had a thing I didn’t pay for.”
Adina pushed her chair back.
“Tell them,” she said.
“Adina.”
“Tell them about the calls, or I will.”
“This is not the time.”
“It’s never the time. It wasn’t the time in August. It wasn’t the time when I paid September out of my own account so the man would stop calling my mother, because you put her down as a reference.”
Mom took her napkin down off her face.
Zach laughed again, but there was no air in it. “It’s a promo. Zero percent. It’s a paperwork thing.”
“It’s zero percent until you miss,” Adina said. “You missed. Three times. Twenty-eight hundred a month. They’re not calling about paperwork, Zach. They’re calling about where the car is parked.”
Every head at that table turned toward the front window at once. You could see the coupe from Dad’s chair, matte gray under the porch light, nose to the street.
“Mohammed from the lender has called twice today,” Adina said. “I know his name because he called me first.”
Zach looked at me. Right at me, down the candles.
And I knew exactly what he was going to say before he said it, and I still felt it land.
“You could cover it,” he said. “Tonight. You could cover it from your phone before dessert and none of this matters.”
Then, quieter, the one only I’d hear the bottom of: “You owe me that. After making me look like this.”
Twenty-two hours a day
I put the watch back on. It took two tries again. The holes are soft.
Here’s what I wanted to do. I wanted to say yes. That’s the embarrassing part. Thirty-one years of being his big sister, of hiding the last cookie for him and lying to Dad about the dent in the Buick, and some old animal part of me reached for my phone.
Brigid told me once, in that room above the dry cleaner, that her father had a rule for the twelve. He never paid for anybody’s mistakes. He only paid for their work. “It’s the only way the money means anything,” she said. “Otherwise it’s just a softer kind of contempt.”
I did not reach for my phone.
“No,” I said.
Zach blinked like I’d slapped him.
“I’m not covering your car, Zach. I’ll say it in front of Mom and Dad, so nobody has to wonder later. I’m not paying your car note, and I’m not paying it quietly.”
“You’ve got four hundred million dollars.”
“The company does. I’ve got a one-bedroom and a monthly pass.” I pointed toward the window. “And you’ve got a car that sits in a garage twenty-two hours a day. Easy to say when you can’t make the payment. Isn’t that what you said? At 7:45?”
He stood up so fast his chair went over backward. It hit Mom’s good floor flat. Nobody picked it up.
“This is unbelievable. This is Mom’s anniversary and you’re doing this.”
“You did the hat,” Grandpa said.
“It was a joke.”
“Then pass it,” Grandpa said. He reached under his chair, picked up his old tweed cap off the rung where he’d hung it, and held it out across the corner of the table. “Go on. Pass the hat. For your car.”
I have never loved a human being more than I loved that eighty-six-year-old man right then.
Zach stared at the cap. Then at Dad.
Dad didn’t save him. He got up, walked around the table, and picked the fallen chair up off the floor, and he put it back square and sat Zach down in it with one hand on his shoulder. Not rough. Just heavy.
“You’ll give Adina back September,” Dad said. “Tonight. And you’ll call that man Monday and tell him where the car is. And you’ll apologize to your sister and to your grandfather, in that order, in front of the people you said it in front of.”
“Dad—”
“Sixteen people, Zachary. You wanted an audience.”
He sat there in the reset chair for maybe ten seconds, a long time at a dinner table. Then he turned to me, and his eyes were wet, and that part I wasn’t ready for. My little brother crying in his good jacket with his phone dead in his pocket.
“I’m sorry I did the hat,” he said. “And the cat. And the voice. All the times with the voice.”
“Okay,” I said.
“Grandpa, I’m sorry about the lathe.”
Grandpa put his cap back on the chair rung. “Lathe’s a good machine,” he said. “Doesn’t lie to you.”
Adina put her hand on Zach’s arm. She left it there, but she didn’t look at him.
Jeanette said she thought it was time for cake.
Tuesday
The coupe went Tuesday at 8:15 in the morning. Mom called me at work to narrate.
“A flatbed,” she said. “The man was very polite. He had a clipboard. Zach handed him both fobs and the man said thank you.”
“Was Zach okay?”
“He stood on the lawn in his socks until it turned the corner.” She paused. “Your father made him coffee.”
Three missed payments. Eight thousand four hundred dollars, and the zero percent was gone the day he missed the first one. The lender kept what he’d paid in. The car went to auction in Joliet. Adina got her twenty-eight hundred back by Venmo on Saturday night, before the cake was cut; she showed me the screen in the hall like a receipt. She moved her things out of his apartment two weekends later, the polite way, while he was at work, and she left the spare key on the counter.
Zach took a second job writing up service orders at a dealership in Lombard. He takes the train to it. I know because the following Friday I got a text, the first one from him in about a year that wasn’t a link to a car.
The 7:04 was four minutes late.
I texted back. Freight on the main line. We fixed it by 7:20.
He didn’t answer for an hour. Then: Of course you did.
Jeanette sent me a card. It said she’d always been proud of me. I put it in the drawer with the grocery-store gift cards, because I don’t throw anything my family gives me away, even when I should.
The week after that, I took Grandpa into the city.
He wore his tweed cap and the jacket he wore to Grandma’s funeral, and he refused the car I sent, which I’d honestly expected. So I met him at Glen Ellyn and we rode the 9:12 in together, him by the window. He spent the entire ride with his palm flat on the glass, like he could feel the rail joints through it.
“Clicks are short,” he said, around Wheaton. “They weld it continuous now.”
“Since before I was born, Grandpa.”
“Still sounds wrong.”
At the operations floor, three hundred and eighty people did not stand up and applaud, because they had trains to run. But the night shift had stayed late on purpose, and somebody had written on the whiteboard, under ILANA DONUTS, a new line: WELCOME MR. MERCADO – NO. 7.
Brigid came down from her office. She’s seventy now and still wears her father’s reading glasses on a cord. She shook Grandpa’s hand and didn’t let go.
“Dad talked about you,” she said. “The man who wouldn’t let him buy gold for the cases.”
“Gold’s soft,” Grandpa said. “You’d have had to fix them every year.”
“That’s exactly what he said you said.”
They talked for an hour by the big board, the one with every line lit up green, while I pretended to answer email and listened to every word.
The 6:12
I walked him back to the platform that evening in the dark. He took my arm on the stairs. He weighs about as much as a good suitcase.
The train was on the board as on time. Of course it was.
“Give it here,” he said.
I unbuckled the strap. One try this time. He’d tightened the pin the week before with a jeweler’s screwdriver he’d kept in a drawer since 1987, and he wouldn’t take a thank-you for it.
He held the watch up under the platform light and wound it himself. Twenty turns. Slow. Counting under his breath in Italian, the way his father must have.
“You wind it every morning,” he said.
“Before coffee.”
“Good.” He put it back in my hand and closed my fingers over it with both of his, the same way he had at the table. “Your brother asked me Sunday if he could try it on.”
“What’d you tell him?”
“I told him to make something first.”
The 6:12 came in with its lights on, right where the board said it would be, and I helped my grandfather up the step.
If this one got to you, send it to the sister who always takes the train.
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