My little sister told me to stay away from our grandmother’s funeral, and she said it in the same kitchen Nana raised us in: “She never loved you, Jaclyn, so don’t show up and embarrass her.” I wrote down the date she gave me. Then a lawyer called on a Thursday morning and asked why I wasn’t already at the church.
Nana Louise took us in after the crash that killed our parents, and her pension paid for both our braces.
When her kidneys failed, I was the ONLY one driving her to dialysis, three mornings a week.
Nicolette visited twice, and both times she asked about the house.
“I’m just waiting for her to go so I can SELL it,” she said, eating saltines at the counter.
Then Nana died on a Sunday, and my sister turned into somebody else.
“I’m handling everything,” she said on the phone. “Service is next Saturday. And honestly, Jac, she didn’t WANT you there.”
Nicolette had never handled a thing in her life.
Something was off.
The call came at 9:40 that Thursday.
“This is Spencer Neumann, your grandmother’s attorney,” he said. “She asked for YOU to read her letter. The service starts at eleven.”
Saturday was a lie built just for me.
I drove to Erie in the cardigan I’d slept in, a Tuesday parking ticket still on the dash.
Nicolette was in the second pew in green velvet, head tipped back, laughing at something our cousin said.
Like it was BRUNCH.
Then she saw me in the aisle, and her mouth went flat.
“What are you DOING here? I told you not to come,” she said, and two rows turned around.
I told her I hadn’t come for her.
After the last hymn, Mr. Neumann handed me a manila envelope, and I carried it up front.
The paper wouldn’t hold still in my hands.
“If Jaclyn is reading this, then Nicolette tried to keep her home. I know what my granddaughter says when I’m out of the room. That is why I CHANGED EVERYTHING in March.”
Nobody in that church moved.
That was page one.
Behind me, Nicolette was on her feet SCREAMING my name, and I kept reading.
The manila envelope
“The house on Pelham Street goes to Jaclyn, and everything in it. Nicolette, you know why. Page two is for you, and your sister reads it to you at my kitchen table, not in front of the whole Altar Society. Mr. Neumann has the rest.”
That was the bottom of page one.
I read it twice because the first time came out too fast, and the second time Nicolette was in the aisle behind me saying, “That’s not her. That’s not even how she talks.”
It was exactly how she talked. Nana typed like she spoke, short and a little mean, and she never used a comma if a period would do.
I folded page one back over page two and put the envelope inside my cardigan, against my chest, and held it there with my arm.
Nicolette came up the two steps to the altar rail and our cousin Milton came right behind her with his hand out, like she was a dog off a leash.
“There is no page two,” she said. “She couldn’t hold a fork in March. Somebody typed that for her.”
“She typed it herself, in my office, on the eleventh of March,” Mr. Neumann said from the front pew. “I drove her.”
I had driven Nana everywhere for two years. I had not driven her to that.
Nicolette’s face did something then, and she turned around, toward the pew behind the one she’d been laughing in.
A fair-haired woman in a navy blazer was sitting there with her phone in her lap. I had never seen her in my life.
She leaned forward and said, “Nikki, is that the sister?”
The bread box
Nana’s kitchen on Pelham Street is narrow, yellow, and built for one person standing at the stove.
She took us in when I was eleven and Nicolette was five. The crash was on Route 5 in the snow, and after it there was a week I don’t remember and then there was Nana’s kitchen, which I remember all of.
She kept the baby monitor from Nicolette’s crib. Not in a box. Plugged in. The little white transmitter sat on the counter next to the bread box, and the receiver sat on the windowsill in the den beside her recliner.
“So I can hear the kettle,” she said, every time anybody asked, for thirty years.
The kettle had a whistle you could hear from the porch.
On the fridge, under a magnet shaped like the lighthouse at Presque Isle, she kept a fourth-grade report card. Nicolette had gotten a D in math and had signed Nana’s name on the line at the bottom so she wouldn’t have to show it to her. Louise Stanton, with the tall curly L Nana made, the one that looked like a shepherd’s crook.
Nana found it anyway. She didn’t yell. She put it on the fridge.
“She does my L better than I do,” she said, and it stayed up there for twenty-six years.
By the back door there were two hooks with masking tape over them, JAC and NIKKI in black marker, where we were supposed to hang our keys. I still hung mine there when I came in. Nicolette’s hook had been empty since she was nineteen.
When Nana’s kidneys went, I was the one who lived twenty minutes away in North East, so I was the one. Monday, Wednesday, Friday, then Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday when the clinic moved her chair. I kept a spiral notebook in the glove box because the social worker told me to. Date, time in, weight before, weight after, chair number. The nurse at the desk, Keisha, initialed every line because I asked her to and she thought it was funny.
Three hundred and twelve lines. I counted them the night Nana died.
Nicolette lived in Erie proper, eleven minutes from the house. She posted pictures with Nana on her birthday and on Mother’s Day, both of them at the kitchen table, captioned my whole heart. Those were the two visits.
The old will, the one before March, split the house between us and made Nicolette the executor. Nana told me about it herself, at the clinic, with the needles in.
“The baby needs a job,” she said. “You already have one.”
I didn’t argue. You don’t argue with somebody on a machine.
After the service the family went for the cars and I went for mine, and I got to Pelham Street before anybody, the way I always had.
I put my key in the back door. It went in and wouldn’t turn.
The gray box on the knob
There was a gray box hanging off the back doorknob, the kind with a little dial on the front and a hook through it.
I stood there with my key out until Nicolette’s car pulled in behind mine, then Milton’s truck, then two cars of church ladies with casseroles.
“It’s for the hospice people,” Nicolette said, walking past me with a pan of ziti. “So they didn’t have to call you every time.”
Hospice had come and gone on Sunday. She dialed four numbers, took a key out of the box and let everyone in ahead of me.
The house smelled like lemon cleaner. It had never smelled like anything but coffee and Vicks.
Nana’s recliner had been pushed back against the wall of the den. The big mirror in the front hall was gone, and you could see the lighter rectangle on the wallpaper where it had hung since the Carter administration. Somebody had put fake white tulips in the window.
Under the radiator by the den door there was a blue paper shoe cover, the kind with the elastic at the ankle.
I picked it up and put it in my cardigan pocket.
The church ladies set up on the dining room table. I could hear Nicolette in the kitchen telling one of them, a woman from the Altar Society whose name I never learned, that Jac and Nana hadn’t really been close at the end, which happens, which is nobody’s fault.
I went out to the porch and called Mr. Neumann.
“Did she change the locks?” I said.
“The house isn’t hers to lock,” he said. “But it isn’t yours either until probate. Don’t fight her for a door, Jaclyn. I’ll come at five and you’ll read page two at the table, like Louise wanted.”
When I came back in, Milton was by the fridge with a paper plate.
“Jac,” he said. “Maybe just give her today. She’s a wreck.”
She was laughing in the den with the woman from the Altar Society. Milton is my mother’s sister’s boy, and he’s been taking Nicolette’s side since she was old enough to cry about something.
I told him okay. I went to get a glass of water.
The lighthouse magnet was still on the fridge. The report card was gone.
Under the magnet there was a business card. Rhonda Braun, Lakeshore Realty, with a photo of a fair-haired woman in a navy blazer.
Rhonda Braun
She found me on the back porch twenty minutes later, a cup of coffee in each hand, like we’d met before.
“You must be the sister,” she said, and gave me one. “Nikki said you’d moved to Columbus.”
“North East,” I said. “Twenty minutes.”
“Oh. Well.” She drank some of hers. “I’m so sorry about your grandma. She had such a lovely home. Original woodwork. You don’t see it.”
I asked her how she knew it was lovely.
She looked at me like it was a funny question. “I listed it, hon. In February. The Singletons are under contract, they’ve got two little boys, they want the closing on the fourteenth so the boys can start at Jefferson after Thanksgiving.”
This is the part I need people to understand. I didn’t know. I had been in that house three days a week for two years, picking Nana up at seven in the morning and dropping her off at one, and I didn’t know.
“Nana listed it,” I said.
“She signed the listing agreement the second week of February. Nikki brought it in. Power of attorney stuff, the family handles all that, I don’t get into it.” She took her phone out. “I have it right here, I photographed everything for the file.”
She held the screen out to me.
It was a two-page form with the Lakeshore Realty logo at the top. Seller: Louise M. Stanton. At the bottom, in blue ink, a signature. A tall curly L like a shepherd’s crook.
I gave her the phone back.
“She left the house to me,” I said. “In March. There’s a letter. Her lawyer’s coming at five.”
Rhonda’s face got very polite. “Then I’m sure the lawyers will sort it out. But a listing’s a listing, and a contract is a contract, and the Singletons already paid for the furniture.”
“What furniture?”
The screen door opened behind her. Nicolette stood there with the ziti spoon still in her hand.
“Rhonda, come inside, Father wants to meet you,” she said. Then she looked at me. “And you. You think a letter beats a contract? She signed it, Jac. She wanted it gone. She just didn’t want to tell you, because you’d make that face. That face right there.”
Two of the church ladies were at the kitchen window.
Milton came out onto the porch and stood next to Nicolette, which was where he always stood.
“Read your little page two,” Nicolette said. “Read it at five. Then get out of my house.”
Page two
Mr. Neumann came at five exactly, in a gray suit and a tie with small green anchors on it.
The church ladies were gone. The ziti was in the fridge. It was Nicolette at the head of the table in Nana’s chair, Rhonda beside her with a folder, Milton leaning on the counter by the bread box, and Mr. Neumann across from me.
Nicolette had asked Rhonda to stay. “So we can get this over with,” she said.
I took the envelope out of my cardigan. It was warm. I unfolded page two and put it flat on the table so it wouldn’t shake.
It said Nikki at the top. Then it went.
“Nikki. The monitor by the bread box still works. I never turned it off. You were the reason I bought it and you are the reason I kept it.”
Milton moved his elbow off the counter.
“In January I heard you tell somebody on the phone that I’m on the machine Tuesday mornings till noon and the house is empty. I heard you ask what a house on this street goes for. I heard you at the counter with your crackers. I am old. I am not deaf.”
Nicolette said, “Okay, this is ridiculous.”
I kept reading.
“On the twelfth of February a card came in my mailbox from a woman named Rhonda thanking me for letting her show my home on Tuesday the tenth. On Tuesday the tenth I was in chair six at the clinic from seven until one and your sister was holding my coat.”
Rhonda put her coffee cup down on the table.
“I never signed a listing. If there is one with my name on it, look at the L. You’ve been doing my L since the fourth grade. I kept the proof on the refrigerator for twenty-six years because I thought it was cute.”
Nicolette’s hand went flat on the table.
“I am not calling the police on my granddaughter. I’m leaving it to her sister. Jaclyn decides. Jaclyn has always been the one who decides, and nobody ever thanked her for it, including me. Thank you, Jac.”
That was the bottom of page two. Under it, in blue ink, she had signed. Louise Stanton. The L was shakier than the one on Rhonda’s phone. That was how you could tell.
Nobody said anything.
Then I reached into my pocket and put the blue paper shoe cover on the table, next to the letter.
Rhonda looked at it, and then she opened her folder.
Chair six
“Show me,” Mr. Neumann said to Rhonda.
She slid the listing agreement across. He put it next to page two. He didn’t say anything. He didn’t have to. Anybody could see the two L’s.
“She was going to die in that chair,” Nicolette said. “In that ugly chair, in this ugly kitchen, and leave it to both of us, and you’d have wanted to keep it. Like a museum. You’d have wanted to come here on Sundays and dust.”
Nobody had said a word to her yet.
“Do you know what I owe, Jac? Do you have any idea? Forty-one thousand dollars. On cards. I did the math on this house in January and it covered it. It covered it and there was some left. Half of it was going to be mine anyway. I just did it early.”
“The furniture,” Rhonda said.
“The Singletons wanted the dining set and the hutch and the mirror. They gave me twelve thousand in June. Cash. It’s gone, okay? It’s gone. It went on a Visa.”
Rhonda took her phone out and stood up and went out on the porch with it.
“I need to call my broker,” she said, through the screen. “Nikki, I need you to not go anywhere.”
Mr. Neumann said, “The listing is void. Nobody had authority to sign it, and the contract on top of it is void. The Singletons will want the twelve thousand back, and they’ll be entitled to it, and a forged signature on a real estate document in Pennsylvania is a felony.”
Nicolette looked at me. I think she wanted me to say it wasn’t.
“You were supposed to not come,” she said. “That’s all you had to do. Not show up. Everybody would’ve seen you didn’t come and that would’ve been it. She didn’t even come to the funeral. That’s all anybody would’ve remembered.”
Milton came away from the counter.
“You said that this morning,” he said. “In the pew. You said watch, she won’t even show up. I said Jac’s probably stuck on 90. You laughed.”
“Milton.”
“You told my mom she stopped visiting Nana two years ago. You told us that at Easter.” He looked at me. “I didn’t know about the driving. I swear to God I didn’t know.”
I went out to my car. Nobody stopped me. I came back with the spiral notebook from the glove box and opened it to February and put it on the table on top of the listing.
Tuesday the tenth. Time in 7:05. Weight before, weight after. Chair six. KJ.
Mr. Neumann read the line. Then he read the rest of the page.
“That’ll do it,” he said quietly. “With the letter and this, nobody needs the Singletons in a courtroom. Or anybody.”
Then there was the twelve thousand.
I had sixteen thousand in a savings account at Erie FCU that was going to be a roof on my own house next spring.
I asked Mr. Neumann if he could send the Singletons a check from me, with a note, and tell them the listing was void, and that whoever signed it had no authority, and that they would not be hearing from any of us again.
“You don’t owe those people anything,” he said. “And you don’t owe her.”
“Put it in the note that it’s from me,” I said.
Nicolette stood up out of Nana’s chair.
She didn’t cry. She didn’t say thank you. She took the key out of her pocket, the one from the gray box, and dropped it on the table on top of my notebook.
“Enjoy it,” she said. “You always got to be the good one.”
She went out the back door and down the steps, and Rhonda stepped aside to let her by.
The hooks by the back door
That Saturday was the date she’d given me for the funeral.
I spent it at Pelham Street with a locksmith named Filip who wanted cash, and who took the gray box off the back knob with a pair of bolt cutters and put it in his truck like a trophy.
He gave me two new keys on a paper tag.
The mirror was gone for good, to the Singletons or to whoever the Singletons gave it to. I put Nana’s recliner back where it had been, by the window in the den, where the sun comes in at four.
The monitor was still on the counter by the bread box. The little green light was on.
In the bread box there was half a sleeve of saltines, rolled shut and held with a clothespin.
I left them there.
Nicolette had not called. Milton had called twice. The second time he asked if I wanted help with the gutters, and I said yes.
I put the kettle on, because the kitchen was too quiet without it.
Then I took the second new key off the paper tag, walked it over to the back door, and hung it on the hook that still said NIKKI.
If you’ve ever been the one holding somebody’s coat in a clinic waiting room, send this to whoever sat in the next chair with you.
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