I’ve worked nights at the two-pump station on the county road for eleven years. Around one, I was dragging trash to the dumpster when the light at the corner went red and a little silver hatchback stopped under it.
A man came off the sidewalk and leaned right into her open window, his buddy planted at her bumper. She told him to step back. He didn’t. I set the bag down. I’m fifty-nine, and I’ve stood behind that counter long enough to know when a night is about to go wrong.
The pink lanyard
I stepped off the curb.
The red light was on all of it. The hatchback, the girl inside with both hands locked on the wheel, the man folded into her window like he was ordering at a drive-through. His buddy leaned on her bumper with his arms crossed.
Neither one of them was drunk. That was the part I didn’t like.
“Back away from her window, son,” I said.
He turned his head out of the car and grinned at me. Black puffer jacket, new enough that it still had the shine. “Go sell your lottery tickets, Grandma.”
The buddy laughed and pointed at my vest. “Nice vest. Free hot dog?”
The hot dogs are not free. They’re two for three dollars, and they’d been on the roller since ten.
I walked up and stopped one step behind his shoulder. Close enough to smell him. Too much cologne for one in the morning on a county road.
He put up one finger. Slow, so I’d be sure to see it. “Here’s one.”
The buddy laughed. The girl in the car kept her eyes on the light, like she could make it change by staring.
“Here comes two.”
Two fingers. They both laughed louder.
“And three, Grandma.”
I took hold of the back of that puffer collar and pulled. He came out of the window easier than you’d think, the way a man does when all his weight’s been leaning one direction. I put my foot behind his ankle, and he sat down on the asphalt like somebody’d pulled his chair.
The buddy came off the bumper at me. I stepped out of his way and left my foot where it was. He went flat and slid a little on the cold road.
The light went green.
“Light’s green, honey,” I said to the girl. “Go.”
She went. I never got her name. Her taillights got small and turned left at the feed store, and that was the last of her.
The man in the puffer sat there beside his buddy under the green light. He didn’t look at me. He said it to the buddy, low, the way you’d complain that a bar closed early.
“First girl tonight gave up her keys.”
I looked down at him. His hand was in his jacket pocket, and something in there jingled. A pink strap hung out over the edge. A lanyard, the kind with a badge clip on the end.
“What girl,” I said.
He got up. He brushed off the seat of his jeans. He smiled at me the way you smile at a dog behind a fence.
“Night, Grandma.”
They didn’t walk up the road or down it. They walked around the side of my building, toward the dumpster.
I picked up my trash bag and followed far enough to see the corner. A truck started back there. It pulled out onto the county road with no headlights and didn’t turn them on until it was past the light.
Gray Silverado. Our decal on the tailgate, the green gas pump with the smiling face.
I knew that truck. I’d been ringing up gas for the man who owned it for eleven years.
The coffee can
Hal Doyle owns my station and three more like it on the county roads. He also sits on the county commission, which is how the light at my corner got put in. He complained for two years that trucks blew past without stopping for gas.
The light didn’t sell much gas. It did make cars stop right outside my window at all hours, which I guess was the idea.
I took nights after Gary died. Days had too many people who wanted to talk about him. Nights I had my regulars. The egg truck at two-thirty. A couple nurses coming off late shift at the nursing home up by the Dollar General. Ray Pruitt from the sheriff’s office at three, for a large coffee and whatever was left on the roller.
Ray eats the hot dogs. I’ve told him what’s in them. He says he knows.
Hal used to come in Tuesdays. Tuesday night is when the safe gets emptied. For about a year now, that was his boy’s job.
Cody.
I’d trained him one summer when he was nineteen, if you can call it training. He never looked up from his phone. I could have picked him out of a lineup by the top of his head.
Lately he didn’t come through the front at all. He had the safe-night key ring, the one with the side door key and the dumpster key on it. He’d come in the back, empty the safe into the bank bag, sign Hal’s log, and leave without a word to me. Some Tuesdays the Silverado sat behind the dumpster a long while after.
I mentioned it to Hal once.
“Leave him be, Brenda,” Hal said. “Boy’s got a lot on him.”
Everybody in town said something like that about Cody. Cody coached the little kids’ flag football at the Methodist church. Cody was going to take over the stations someday. Cody had his daddy’s smile, which was true. I’d never cared for his daddy’s smile either.
The dumpster has a chain and a padlock on its gate. Hal put it on after people from three counties started dumping mattresses in it. Two keys. Mine, and the one on the safe-night ring.
That night, when I’d rounded the building with my trash bag, the padlock had been hanging open. I figured I’d left it that way at eleven. I slung my bag in on top of whatever was in there and snapped the lock shut.
Two more things live behind my counter.
One is a spiral notebook. Hal docks my pay for drive-offs, so I write down the plate of anything that sits too long at the pumps, or anything I don’t like the look of. Eleven years of plates. Most of them mean nothing.
The other is a Folgers can under the register that we use for lost and found. Two pairs of sunglasses, a kid’s retainer, a hearing aid nobody ever came back for.
And a driver’s license.
Three weeks back, one of my bags split on the way out to the dumpster, and I’d had to pick up the mess by hand. In with my own trash on the ground was a license that wasn’t anybody’s I knew. A girl named Ashley, born 2002, an address forty minutes east.
I figured some boyfriend had thrown out his ex’s things. I put it in the can so she could come get it.
She never came.
I went inside that night and wrote the Silverado’s plate in my notebook anyway. Habit. I knew whose truck it was. I wanted it on paper with a time next to it.
Then I locked the front door, which we’re not supposed to do. I sat on my stool and looked out at the corner.
At one twenty-five, somebody pulled on the locked door.
Megan
She was a kid. Twenty-two, maybe. Scrubs with cartoon cats on them under a gray hoodie.
Nothing in her hands. No purse, no phone, no keys.
She’d walked from the light by the Dollar General. A little better than half a mile, on a county road with no shoulder to speak of, in work shoes.
I let her in. She stood in the middle of the floor like she’d forgotten what you do in a store.
“Can I use your phone,” she said. “I’m sorry. I don’t have mine.”
I put her on my stool and gave her my cell and a coffee she never drank. She called her mama. I could hear the mama’s voice come out of that phone from three feet away, high and fast.
“No, Mama, I’m okay. I’m okay. I just need you to come get me.”
She said it five times before her mama believed her.
Then she gave me back the phone and told me.
Her name was Megan. She worked second shift at Maple Ridge, the nursing home. She’d stopped at the red light by the Dollar General with her window down a crack, because her heater only had two settings, off and July.
A man came up to the window. Another man stood in front of her car.
“He was nice,” she said. “That was the thing. He was so nice. He called me gorgeous. He said they needed a ride, and I said I couldn’t, and he said, well then, just give me your keys, gorgeous, and your bag, and you can walk home.”
She looked at her hands.
“And I just did it. I handed them right to him. I don’t even know why I did that.”
“Was his buddy standing on your bumper,” I said.
She looked up at me.
“Yes ma’am.”
“Then you know why you did it.”
Her keys had been on a pink lanyard, her work badge clipped to the end. Her purse had her phone in it and her paycheck, cashed that afternoon at the grocery store. Three hundred forty dollars. Her car insurance was due Wednesday.
It was Wednesday.
I called Ray.
He pulled in at ten till two, a big slow man with a mustache he’s had since the first Bush. He listened to Megan with his hat in his hands. He asked if she could pick out the man.
“I think so,” she said. “He had his hood up. It was so dark.”
I put the spiral notebook on the counter in front of him and turned it around.
Ray read it a long time for one line.
“That’s Hal’s truck,” he said.
“I know whose truck it is.”
“Hal’s truck could be driven by anybody.”
“It was driven by his boy.”
“You saw Cody’s face.”
“I saw the top of his head for a whole summer. I saw his face for about forty seconds tonight, and it was laughing at me.”
Ray looked at my vest. “He put hands on you?”
“I put hands on him.”
Ray closed the notebook very gently, like it might go off.
Megan’s mama came in at two-fifteen in her husband’s work coat, the county road department patch on the shoulder. Her name was Pam. She grabbed Megan and held her by both arms and looked her over the way you’d check a dropped dish.
When she heard the name Doyle, she stopped.
“Hal Doyle’s boy?”
“Maybe,” Ray said.
Pam looked down at the patch on her own sleeve. Her husband plowed Hal Doyle’s roads. Hal Doyle voted on his raises.
“Don’t you put her name on anything, Ray,” Pam said. “Not till we talk.”
At the door, she came back. She took a receipt off my counter and wrote her number on the back with my pen.
“Megan shares her location with me,” she said. “Her phone. Her sister set it up. I don’t know how you look at it.”
“Have her sister look.”
“Her sister’s in Nashville, and it’s two in the morning, and she sleeps like a dead woman.”
They left. Ray stood with his hand on the door a second.
“I’ll write it up,” he said. “But Brenda. You’d better write yours up, too. Before Cody writes his.”
Four-ten
The store phone rang at four-ten.
Nobody calls the store phone at four-ten but Hal.
“You put my son on the ground,” he said.
No hello. Hal doesn’t say hello to people he pays.
“I did.”
“In the road. In front of my store.”
“He was leaning in a girl’s window with his buddy standing on her bumper.”
“Cody said he was asking for directions.”
“At a red light. On foot. At one in the morning.”
“I’ve got it on the camera, Brenda. I’ve been sitting here watching it on my phone.”
The camera over pump two catches the corner. Hal paid extra for that, back when he wanted proof that trucks were running his light.
“Then you saw him in that window.”
“I saw a woman in my vest drag my boy out by his collar and trip him in the road. That’s what the camera saw. That’s what anybody’s going to see.”
I didn’t say anything. There wasn’t anything to say to that that the camera hadn’t said better.
“Ray Pruitt called me,” Hal said.
That one landed lower down.
“As a courtesy,” Hal said. “Him knowing me thirty years. He says some girl lost her purse up the road. Cody was home by midnight.”
“Cody was on my asphalt at one.”
“You’re done, Brenda. I’ll be there at five-thirty with Tammy. You leave your key on the counter.”
Eleven years. I’d been there through two robberies, a man who drove into the ice machine, and the night the power went out and I sold gas off a clipboard by flashlight for six hours. Hal had sent me a fruit basket for that. Pears. I don’t eat pears.
“And Cody’s talking about a complaint,” Hal said. “Assault. You’re lucky he’s not hurt.”
“He sat down.”
“You want to explain that to a judge, you go right ahead.”
Then he hung up.
I sat there with the phone humming in my hand. Out the window, the light at the corner went red for nobody.
I’m fifty-nine. Nobody in this county is lining up to hire a fifty-nine-year-old woman with a bad shoulder who just got fired for knocking a commissioner’s son down in the road.
I took my vest off and folded it on the counter.
Then I counted my drawer one last time, because I was not going to hand Hal Doyle the satisfaction of a short drawer. It came out eleven cents over.
I left the eleven cents.
My key
At five-thirty the Silverado pulled in to pump two. Hal driving. Cody in the passenger seat.
Still in the puffer.
Tammy pulled in behind them in her little red Kia. Tammy works days. She’s been there four years and she has never once in four years looked at me while she said good morning.
Hal came in alone. He’s seventy and walks like his boots are new. He stood on the customer side of my counter like a customer.
“Key,” he said.
I took it off my ring and set it down by the vest.
Hal didn’t pick it up. He let it lie there so I’d have to look at it.
“Here’s how it goes,” he said. “You walk out of here quiet, Cody doesn’t sign anything. Nobody goes to any judge. You collect your unemployment and you find something closer to home.”
“And the girl from the Dollar General light.”
“I don’t know any girl.”
“Her daddy plows your roads.”
Hal looked at me for a while. Then he looked at Tammy, who was very busy with the cigarette rack.
“Then he’ll want to keep plowing them,” he said.
That was the whole deal. My mouth shut, and I didn’t go to court for tripping his son. Megan’s family’s mouth shut, and her daddy kept his job. Everybody quiet, everybody home, and Cody back on the safe-night ring next Tuesday.
I’ve been offered worse deals. Not many.
“Okay, Hal,” I said.
I got my coat. I got my purse. I left the spiral notebook in my purse, because it’s mine, I bought it at the Dollar General for a dollar and a quarter.
I walked out to my car. I had to pass the Silverado to get there.
Cody had the passenger window down.
He didn’t say anything. He just smiled, and lifted one finger. Then two. Then three.
I kept walking.
I sat in my car with the engine off. Five forty-four on the dash. The trash truck comes at seven on Wednesdays. Lonnie drives it, and Lonnie has not been late one day in his life. I used to set my watch by the beeping when he backed in.
I put my hands on the wheel like I was going somewhere.
Then my phone rang. The number from the back of the receipt.
Pam’s phone
“Her sister woke up,” Pam said.
Her voice was different. Not high anymore. Flat and careful, like she was reading off a bottle.
“She looked. Brenda, it says the phone’s at your store.”
“Where at my store.”
“It’s a dot. It’s just a little dot, and it’s on your building. The back side of it.”
I turned around in my seat.
From where I was parked, I could see the corner of the building and the chain-link gate around the dumpster. The padlock I’d snapped shut at one o’clock. My own bag on top of whatever was in there.
“Pam, what time was Megan at that light?”
“She called me at one-thirty. She said she walked twenty minutes. Twenty-five.”
So, quarter till one. Half a mile from my dumpster.
And three weeks ago, a Tuesday night, a split bag and a girl named Ashley’s license in the gravel by that same gate. Not in my trash. Next to it.
I thought about the Silverado sitting back there on Tuesday nights, a long while after the safe was done. I’d figured a boy drinking beer where his daddy couldn’t see him. Leave him be, Brenda.
He’d been cleaning out his pockets.
Tuesday night, safe night, Cody’s ring with the dumpster key on it. And Wednesday at seven, Lonnie comes and takes it all to the landfill, and there’s nothing left of any Tuesday.
“Brenda?” Pam said. “Are you there?”
“Is it still showing?”
“It says ten percent battery.”
Ten percent. And an hour and ten minutes till Lonnie.
“Get Megan,” I said. “Get in the truck. Come back here right now. And don’t call her phone till I tell you.”
I hung up and called Ray.
He picked up on the first ring, which meant he hadn’t slept either.
“You called Hal,” I said.
“Brenda. It was a courtesy.”
“Then do me one. Come back to the store. Before seven.”
“What’s at the store.”
“Megan’s phone. And Lonnie’s truck, at seven. You pick which one gets here first.”
He didn’t say anything for a second. I could hear his turn signal ticking.
“Fifteen minutes,” he said.
I got out of my car and walked back across the lot.
The Silverado was still at pump two. Cody had his seat leaned back and his eyes closed, like he’d done a long day’s work.
I opened the front door of my store. The bell went.
Hal looked up from the counter.
Lonnie’s truck
“You forget something?” Hal said.
“Lost and found,” I said. “I lost something.”
I went around the counter. Tammy got out of my way so fast she knocked a can of Skoal off the rack. I took the Folgers can from under the register.
“That’s store property,” Hal said.
“Then call somebody.”
I walked out with it.
Ray’s cruiser pulled in at six-eighteen. Pam’s husband’s truck at six twenty-five, Megan in the passenger seat in the same cat scrubs.
Hal came out the front door. When he saw Ray, he put his smile on. When he saw Megan, he took it back off.
He leaned in the Silverado window and said something. Cody got out and stretched.
So we were all there, standing at my dumpster gate in the gray before sunup. Hal and his boy. Ray with his hat on. Pam with her arm around Megan. Tammy in the front window with the phone to her ear, calling somebody, probably Hal’s wife.
And me with a coffee can.
“Ray,” Hal said. “What is this.”
“Brenda says there’s a phone.”
“In my dumpster.”
“Seems like.”
“That’s private property.”
“It’s your dumpster, Hal,” Ray said. “It’s somebody else’s phone.”
I got my padlock key out of my coat pocket. Hal had taken my store key. He’d forgotten that one, because he’d never in his life thrown out his own trash.
I opened the gate. I lifted the lid.
“Pam,” I said. “Call her.”
Pam called.
It rang inside the dumpster. Muffled, under my bag. That cheap little default ring, the one everybody’s phone has before they change it.
Cody laughed. “Anybody can throw anything in a dumpster.”
“It’s locked eleven to six,” I said. “Your daddy’s rule.”
I pulled out my own bag from one o’clock and set it on the concrete. My shoulder told me about it. Under it was a tan purse, still ringing, with a cartoon cat key chain on the zipper.
Megan made a sound.
Under the purse there was a black wallet, and under that, a green one.
I opened the green one. A debit card, a library card, a picture of a dog. No license.
The name on the debit card was Ashley.
I opened the Folgers can, took out the license, and held it up next to the card so Ray could read both.
Ray read both.
Then nobody said anything, and the phone stopped ringing.
Cody talked first, and Cody talked most.
“So what? So what. I never took one thing off anybody. Ask her.” He pointed at Megan. “She handed it to me. They all hand it to me. Every one of them just hands it right over.”
“Your friend was standing on my bumper,” Megan said.
“Shane stands where he wants.”
“Cody,” Hal said.
“Dad, it’s the register lady. It’s a coffee can. It’s a bunch of trash.”
“Cody, don’t say another word.”
“I’m not saying anything. I’m saying they handed it over. That’s not taking. Everybody here knows that’s not taking. And she put me on the road, Dad, you saw it, you’ve got it on the camera, she’s the one who ought to—”
“Son,” Ray said. “Empty your pockets for me.”
Cody put his hand over his jacket pocket.
The pink lanyard was hanging out of it. It had been hanging out of it since one o’clock in the morning. He’d slept in the truck with it hanging there.
“Megan,” Ray said. “What color’s your lanyard.”
“Pink,” Megan said. “It says Maple Ridge on it.”
Hal looked at his son’s pocket.
I have seen Hal Doyle at a ribbon cutting, at a funeral, and on the evening news complaining about the price of road salt. I had never seen him look at something he couldn’t get out of.
He held out his hand.
“Give it here,” Hal said.
“Dad.”
“Give it.”
Cody pulled the keys out. Megan’s car key, a house key, a little brass key that probably went to a locker, and the badge on its clip with her picture on it. He put them in his daddy’s hand.
That’s the first thing I ever saw Cody Doyle hand anybody.
Hal stood there with them. Then he held them out to Ray, and Ray took them, and that was the end of the Doyle family having anything in its hand that morning.
Out on the county road, I heard the beeping before I saw the truck. Lonnie, backing in, six fifty-eight on the dot.
I walked out to his window.
“Skip us this week, Lonnie,” I said.
Pump two
Ray put Cody in the back of the cruiser at seven-ten. No cuffs. Ray said it was a courtesy. Hal stood by pump two and watched his son ride off in the back seat of a county car he had voted to buy.
They picked up Shane at his mama’s house by noon. By one o’clock Shane had told them everything, including two Tuesdays nobody had reported, because the women never thought anybody would believe they’d just handed their keys over.
Four women, in the end. Megan. Ashley, from forty minutes east. A respiratory therapist from Maple Ridge. A girl who worked the drive-through at Hardee’s. Eleven hundred and eighty dollars between them, and four sets of keys, and four cars left sitting at red lights with nobody in them.
Hal withdrew Cody’s complaint against me before lunch. Then he handed Ray the camera footage he’d been watching on his phone at four in the morning.
Turned out the pump two camera saw plenty. It saw a man folded into a girl’s window and his buddy on her bumper. It saw a man count to three at a woman in a red vest. Ray told me he watched it with the sound off, and he still knew exactly what they were saying.
Cody took a plea in August. Shane took one in July, cheaper, for talking.
Hal paid every one of those women back out of his own pocket. To the dollar. Megan’s was three hundred forty, and she paid her car insurance a week late, and the man at the insurance office waived the fee when she told him why.
The Silverado got sold in April. Before it went, Hal scraped our decal off the tailgate with a razor blade at pump two. He borrowed the razor blade from me. I gave it to him. I didn’t ask for it back.
His name wasn’t on the ballot last Tuesday. First time in sixteen years.
As for me, Hal put my key back on the counter at seven-thirty that same morning. He didn’t say a word, just set it down, the way he’d made me set it down two hours before. Next to it he put a slip of paper with a new number on it. Two dollars more an hour.
“Eleven o’clock,” he said.
“Eleven o’clock,” I said.
Tammy said good morning to me that afternoon when I came in to get my vest. She looked right at me while she said it. Four years.
Pam hugged me in the lot before she left. She hugged me hard, the way she’d held Megan at two-fifteen, checking me over like a dropped dish.
“You walked out to that car,” she said into my coat. “Everybody else in this county would’ve sat inside and called somebody.”
“I did call somebody,” I said. “I just went out first.”
Megan comes by now on her way home from second shift. Coffee with three creamers. She has her own lanyard, a new one, purple. She keeps her window up at lights now, and she told me she doesn’t care if her heater only has July.
On Tuesdays she buys Ray’s hot dog. He lets her.
There’s one key to that dumpster padlock these days. It’s on my ring.
Hal comes himself on Tuesday nights now to empty the safe. He comes in the front door. He signs the log at my counter while I watch him do it.
Last Tuesday, election night, he finished around one. I was dragging my trash bag out back when his Buick pulled up to the corner and stopped at the red light.
The light went green.
He didn’t go. He sat there with his window down and looked at me across the lot, like there was something he was supposed to say and he’d never been taught it.
I set my bag down.
“Light’s green, Hal,” I said. “Go.”
If you’ve got a girl in your life who drives home alone from a late shift, send her this one, and tell her a red light is a fine place to keep the window up.
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