My husband stood outside a highway rest stop in front of his sister and told everyone I’d lost his mother’s ring, the one his grandmother wore for fifty-one years. “She takes it off to play hymns and leaves it by the sink like a hair tie,” he said. I didn’t look behind his phone until we were in his mother’s driveway.
His mother was turning eighty that Saturday, and the one thing she’d asked to see at her party was that ring back on my finger.
Alexandra set her coffee down on the picnic table.
“Grandma’s opal?” she said. “You lost Grandma’s opal?”
“Three weeks ago,” Todd said. “She’s known for three weeks and hasn’t said a word to anybody.”
“It was in the dish on the kitchen windowsill,” I said. “Same dish for SIX YEARS.”
“Because you left it by the sink.”
“I did NOT leave it by the sink.”
Sunil studied his shoes.
Their boy, Vihaan, was twelve and feeding dollar bills into the vending machine one at a time like none of us were there.
A man walked a ferret on a red leash past the trash cans.
Nobody mentioned it.
“Mom trusted you with the only thing she had left of her own mother,” Todd said. “And you treated it like a twist tie.”
“Jesus, Todd,” Alexandra said. “Not here.”
“Where, then? Over the cake?”
He put his hand flat between my shoulder blades and walked me back to the car like I was the one who needed steering.
His phone went back in the clip on the air vent before I had my seat belt on.
The map came up. A folded square of yellow paper sat wedged behind the clip, the way paper gets stuck behind things in a car.
He pulled onto the interstate humming.
The ring went missing on a Thursday in October.
I’d had two funerals that week and choir on Wednesday, and every morning I took it off before I practiced and set it in the little blue dish by the window.
Thursday the dish was empty.
I pulled the couch cushions out. I took the vent covers off the floor.
I dumped the vacuum canister onto newspaper on the garage floor and went through it with a fork.
Todd got down on his back under the sink and unscrewed the trap himself, and held up the bucket of gray water so I could see.
“Nothing, babe,” he said. “We’ll figure out what to tell Mom.”
We.
He was so kind about it. He rubbed my feet that night.
Twenty minutes past the rest stop, he turned the radio down.
“You’re going to tell her BEFORE dinner,” he said. “Not after she’s had wine.”
“I’ll tell her it’s missing.”
“You’ll tell her you lost it, Jac. Those are different.”
“Are they?”
He didn’t answer. He changed lanes to get around a cattle trailer and turned the radio back up.
My phone buzzed in my lap. Alexandra, from the car behind us.
“Mom’s known since Tuesday, Todd called her. She told me to act surprised.”
Tuesday.
Tuesday he’d texted me he was stuck at work until nine and to go ahead and eat without him.
I looked at the side of his face for a long time.
He had one hand on the wheel and the other tapping his knee to some song about a pickup.
I didn’t say anything for sixty miles.
Neither did he. He seemed fine with that.
We pulled into Kathryn’s driveway in Fort Dodge at ten past four.
The porch light was already on. Two pink balloons were tied to the railing, one of them gone soft.
Todd yanked his phone out of the clip to text his sister we were here.
The yellow paper came out with it.
It slid off the dash and landed in my cup holder, on top of my sunglasses.
He didn’t see. He was already out of the car, waving at the front window.
I unfolded it because it was in my cup holder.
That’s the only reason.
It was a carbon copy, the soft yellow kind, with a shop’s name across the top and an address two blocks from his office.
Somebody had typed a line across the middle in capitals.
ONE LADIES RING, OPAL CENTER, 6 SM DIAMONDS.
Under that, LOAN $740.00.
Under that, the date.
October ninth.
The Thursday.
And at the bottom, on the customer line, that T he makes that looks like a seven wearing a hat.
I read it twice. Then I read the date again.
He had been lying on his back under my sink with that paper already in his car.
The screen door banged.
Kathryn came down the porch steps in her good blue cardigan, one hand on the railing, her eyes going straight to my left hand.
Todd opened my door and leaned in with his good-son smile and said, “Go on, get it over with.”
Behind us Alexandra’s car door shut, and nobody else got out.
Kathryn stopped at the bottom of the steps.
“Well, Jaclyn?” she said. “Where is it?”
I got out of the car with the yellow paper folded in my fist.
Todd was still smiling when I held it out to her.
Ten past four
Kathryn took it. She held it out at the end of her arm, because her reading glasses were in the house on top of the microwave where they always are.
“Loan,” she read. “Seven hundred and forty dollars.”
She looked at it a long time. Then she looked at me, and her face went soft in a way I didn’t like.
“Oh, Jaclyn,” she said. “You kept the ticket.”
She folded it once and patted it against my knuckles, like I’d brought her a casserole.
“See, Mom?” Todd said. “I told you she’d hang on to it.”
He hadn’t stopped smiling. Two minutes earlier that paper was behind his phone, and now it was a thing he’d predicted.
“Todd,” I said.
“Not in the driveway, Jac.” He took my elbow. “The neighbors.”
There was one neighbor, a man in a Hawkeyes jacket blowing leaves onto Kathryn’s side of the property line. He didn’t look up.
Alexandra came up the walk with a sheet cake under a plastic dome and her eyes on me instead of her mother. Sunil carried the gift bag. Vihaan carried nothing and went straight inside to find the TV.
Kathryn put the yellow paper in her cardigan pocket, the one she keeps her Kleenex in.
“Come in and wash up,” she said. “We’ll settle the money after cake.”
The money.
I hadn’t said one word about money.
The dish soap
Kathryn’s kitchen still had the yellow curtains it had six years ago, the day she gave me the ring.
That was the spring her knuckles got too big for it. She’d been twisting it for a month and it wouldn’t come over the joint. So she stood me at that sink, squirted Dawn on her finger and then on mine, and worked it off herself and onto me with her thumb.
“My mother wore this fifty-one years,” she said. “She cleaned perch in it. She’d want it on somebody who uses her hands.”
I do use my hands. Two funerals a week, some weeks. Fifty dollars a funeral, seventy-five a wedding if the bride’s mother remembers. I cash the checks and keep the money in a bank envelope in my music bag, in the side pocket with my pedal shoes.
Todd calls it my mad money. It has never once been for anything. That week it was at eight hundred and sixty.
It was in his trunk right then, because I’d promised to play Kathryn’s ten-thirty mass in the morning.
Alexandra had been at the table the day of the dish soap. She said, “Well. Okay,” and went to the bathroom for a long time.
The front of Kathryn’s fridge is Todd. Every card he ever mailed her goes under a magnet until the next one comes. This year’s was already up, early, a cartoon cake with candles, and under Happy 80th Mom was the T.
She taught him that T on the back of a church bulletin when he was seven. She tells it every Christmas. He never fixed it.
Today she walked past the card to the counter by the toaster, picked up her checkbook, and pulled out a chair for me.
Then she shut the kitchen door on Vihaan’s cartoons.
Check 2214
Kathryn keeps her register in pencil. Every check, every debit, the four dollars at the Casey’s. She licked her thumb and turned back one page.
“Tuesday,” she said. “Todd called me. I want you to know I’m not angry.”
“Kathryn, I didn’t…”
“He said you’d been carrying a credit card he didn’t know about. He said you got behind and took Mother’s ring somewhere, and now you couldn’t get it out, and you were too ashamed to ask me yourself.”
“What credit card?”
“Jac,” Todd said. He was leaning in the doorway to the dining room with his arms crossed. “She’s eighty today.”
“So I wrote him a check for it. Fifteen hundred. With the interest, he said, that’s what it takes.” She tapped the line. “And I told Alexandra to act surprised, so you wouldn’t have to stand there with everybody knowing.”
Alexandra had come in the back way with the cake. She set it on the counter and didn’t take the dome off.
“Mom,” she said. “Have you looked at whose name is on it?”
“My glasses are on the microwave and I’m not getting up on my birthday.”
“I’ll get them.”
“Alexandra Weber, you sit down.”
She sat down. She looked at me across the table and lifted her shoulders an inch. That was as far as she was going in her mother’s kitchen.
I put my hands flat on the vinyl tablecloth. It had little pears on it.
“The ticket says seven-forty,” I said.
“There’s interest, Jac.” Todd uncrossed his arms. “You wouldn’t know. You’ve never been in one of those places.”
I leaned over and read the pencil line upside down.
#2214. Todd. $1,500. For J’s ticket.
Gordon
“Can I see it again?” I said.
Kathryn took the yellow paper out of her pocket and held on to it a second before she let go.
There was a phone number under the address. The shop was open till five. It was four-forty.
I put my phone on the table between the cake and the register and dialed it on speaker, so nobody could say later what I’d said or hadn’t.
“Petersen’s,” a man said. Television behind him. A hockey game.
“Hi. I have a question about a ticket.”
“Number’s top right, hon.”
I read it to him. Keys clicked. Todd came off the doorframe.
“And you are?”
“I’m his wife.”
“Okay. I can’t talk about a loan with anybody but the customer, I’m sorry. Only thing I can tell you is the ticket’s the ticket. Whoever walks in with it and the money walks out with the item.”
“Till when?”
“Says right there. Thirty days. The eighth.”
Kathryn had her hand on her chest. Not upset. Concentrating, the way she listens to a homily she disagrees with.
“Okay,” I said. “Thank you.”
“This is Gordon, by the way,” the man said. “Todd okay? He was in Wednesday asking could he extend it. Usually he just pays.”
The card on the fridge
Todd had the phone before Gordon finished breathing.
“Gordon, hey, buddy, it’s Todd. Family thing. Sorry.” He hung up and set my phone face down in front of Kathryn instead of me. “You see what she does, Mom? She’s calling pawnshops from your kitchen. On your birthday.”
“Jaclyn,” Kathryn said. “Honestly.”
“I didn’t take it anywhere. It went missing out of the dish.”
Kathryn’s mouth closed.
“Missing,” she said.
She turned the register over so it was face down too.
“He said you’d say that. Tuesday, on the phone. He said, Mom, she’s going to tell you it went missing. She’ll never say the word pawned, she can’t. Don’t push her. Just let her say it.”
Todd looked at the cake.
“And you came in my kitchen and said it,” Kathryn said. “Just like he said you would.”
I got up. My chair caught on the linoleum and I let it.
I took the glasses off the microwave and put them in her hand. Then I took the birthday card off the fridge, the magnet too, and laid the card open next to the yellow paper on the pears.
She put the glasses on.
She read the typed line about the opal. She read the loan. Her eyes went down to the customer line and over to Happy 80th Mom and back. She did it three times. She moved her finger from one T to the other like she was checking a recipe.
“I taught you that T,” she said.
“She didn’t have her license on her,” Todd said. “She made me sign. She was crying in the car, Mom, what was I supposed to do?”
“October ninth,” I said.
Kathryn found the date.
“That night he had my sink apart,” I said. “He held up the bucket so I could see.”
Kathryn took her glasses off and folded them.
“Todd,” she said. “Where’s my fifteen hundred dollars?”
Sunil
“It’s not gone,” Todd said. “Okay? Nobody’s out anything. It’s a loan, Mom, it’s not sold. It’s sitting in a drawer two blocks from my office. I have till the eighth. I was going to have it out before tonight and put it back in the dish and none of this…”
“With my money,” Kathryn said.
“With a loan from my mother, which people take, which Alex has taken, don’t look at me like that, Alex. I had a good Tuesday going. I was up. I was up most of the night, and then I wasn’t, and that happens, that’s the app, that’s how it works, you ride it back.”
“Up on what?” Alexandra said.
“It doesn’t matter on what.”
“If she’d just said lost,” he said. “Like a normal person. She stands at the sink, says Mom, I’m sorry, I lost it, you hug her, we eat cake, Monday I go get it, it’s on her hand by Thanksgiving and nobody ever thinks about it again. That was the whole thing. That was a nice thing.”
Sunil had been standing by the back door the whole time with the gift bag still in his hand.
“Is this like the crown?” he said.
Everybody looked at him. I don’t think I’d heard him say ten words in a row since the wedding.
“What crown,” Alexandra said.
“August. Todd needed two thousand for Jac’s crown. Back tooth. He said the insurance wouldn’t touch it and she didn’t want anybody to know.” Sunil set the gift bag on the counter. “I didn’t tell you because he asked me not to.”
“I don’t have a crown,” I said.
“You gave him two thousand dollars,” Alexandra said to her husband. “Our two thousand dollars.”
“For her tooth.”
“She doesn’t HAVE a crown, Sunil.”
Todd held his hand out across the table, palm up, at me.
“Give me the ticket, Jac. I’ll go Monday. I’ll pay Mom back, I’ll pay Sunil back, I’ll have it on your finger Monday night. Come on. You can’t even get up there Monday. You’ve got the Kowalski funeral.”
I had the Kowalski funeral at ten. I’d forgotten.
I put the ticket in the front pocket of my jeans.
Then I went out the back, around the side of the house, and opened his trunk. My music bag was under Sunil’s cooler. I came back in with the envelope and counted it out on the pears in front of Kathryn: eight hundred and sixty.
“What is that,” she said.
“Funerals.”
“Put that away.”
I didn’t.
She looked at the money and at the card and at her son, and she pressed her lips together the way she does at the end of a hymn she thinks we took too slow.
“You’ll play my mass in the morning,” she said to me. “Then you go get Mother’s ring. And next Saturday you bring it up here on your hand so I can see it.”
She turned to Todd.
“You’ll ride home with your sister.”
“Like hell he will,” Alexandra said.
“He can ride with me,” Sunil said, to his shoes.
His car keys hung on the hook by the back door. I took them down and put them in my pocket with the ticket.
The picnic table
Gordon turned out to be a big man in a cardigan not much different from Kathryn’s. Monday at four-fifteen, after the Kowalski funeral, I gave him the ticket and seven hundred and forty dollars and ninety-six more in interest.
He went in the back and came out with it in a little zip bag with a paper tag on a string.
“He’s a nice guy, Todd,” Gordon said.
“He is,” I said.
There was twenty-four dollars left in the envelope. I put it back in the side pocket with my pedal shoes.
Todd’s staying on Ian Hong’s couch. Ian lives two blocks from the office too. Todd texts me every night around nine to ask if his mother has said anything about him. I don’t know what to tell him, so I don’t.
Saturday I drove north by myself. My phone was in the clip on the vent, and nothing was behind it.
I stopped at the same rest area off I-35. The picnic table had leaves on it now. I bought a coffee out of the machine Vihaan had fed his dollars into, one at a time, and sat where Alexandra sat.
The ring was on my hand. It had been on my hand all week, through two funerals and choir, and I played every note with it on.
I set my coffee down on the table and turned the opal so it faced up.
Then I got back in the car and pulled onto the interstate, humming.
If this one hit close, send it to somebody who’s ever been told what they did before they got a chance to say it.
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