Allison Holker recently opened up about a heart-wrenching discovery regarding her late husband, Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss. The revelation unfolded as she faced one of the most difficult days of her life, preparing to bid farewell to him after his tragic death.

Stephen, beloved by many, passed away at just 40 years old while staying in a motel. In a shocking turn of events, Allison found hidden drugs weeks after his passing, offering a possible explanation for his sudden and devastating decision.

The discovery was unnerving. She came across a trove of various drugs, including mushrooms, pills, and several other substances she was unfamiliar with, neatly concealed in shoeboxes. This heartbreaking find left her feeling blindsided since she had never suspected such a thing.

In her own words, Allison never once imagined that Stephen would take such drastic measures, as he was not known to display behaviors hinting at such tragic actions.

There had been murmurs from people suggesting that he struggled with depression and mental illness, but to Allison, it seemed baffling. Recently, after piecing together these heart-wrenching fragments, the situation became clearer and made more sense to her.

During an intimate conversation with PEOPLE, Allison disclosed that discovering his secret stash was a significant trigger for her. Amongst the items in the closet, there was more than she could handle alone, compelling her to share with the family.

Despite her revelations, the reaction from some family members has been one of denial. Expressing their dismay, they have criticized her decision to make this public.

With this new understanding, Allison reflects on the enormous impact her late husband’s hidden struggles may have had on his mental wellbeing, acknowledging that this realization has provided some answers to the questions that haunted her.