A little voice came out of the filthy rabbit my son pulled from the mud, said his name and begged, “Please come get me.” I had scrubbed that thing at my sink and sewn it shut with my own hands that afternoon, and the second I pressed its belly at his bedside, it clicked.
It’s been just Krish and me since his mom died three years ago, and Saturday mornings are ours.
After practice the two of us walk the long loop around the rec fields in Kettering, sometimes kicking one rock the whole way.
A man in a poncho was flying a drone over the empty lot.
Krish crouched at the chain-link and stood up holding a rabbit.
It was revolting. One ear chewed to a stub, an eye gone, the fur caked brown, the stuffing dried into hard lumps.
Anyone else walks past that.
Krish jammed it under his chin like it had always been his.
“Bud, that’s been sitting in a ditch,” I said. “Put it back, okay?”
He squeezed it harder.
“No way. She’s MINE now, Dad.”
I didn’t have the fight in me.
“Fine,” I said. “She can come home with us.”
I gave her forty minutes at the sink with dish soap, then sewed the split in her back with black thread.
Krish was over the moon and fell asleep with her pinned under his arm.
A little after ten I went in to pull the comforter up over his shoulders.
My wrist came down on the rabbit’s belly.
Something inside her clicked.
Then static, so loud I jerked back, and a small scratchy voice came through the fur.
“KRISH, I KNOW IT’S YOU. Please come get me.”
The back of my neck went cold. A real kid had just said my son’s name.
A prank? Some kind of monitor? Was somebody watching my house?
I eased her out from under his arm.
At the kitchen table I ripped out my own stitches and pushed two fingers in until they hit something hard.
A plastic box with a speaker and one button, wrapped in gray duct tape.
I held the button down. “This is Krish’s dad. WHO IS THIS?”
Somebody answered. ⬇️⬇️⬇️
The button
Static first. Then a girl, closer to the box this time, breathing like she’d run to it.
“It’s Elsie,” she said. “Elsie. Is he asleep? Did he keep her?”
I knew one Elsie. My wife’s sister’s girl. The last time I saw her she was six, in a black dress with tights that bagged at the knees, eating mints out of her coat pocket at the back of the funeral home.
I let go of the button and looked at it for a while. Then I pressed it again.
“Elsie, where are you right now?”
“At Grandma’s. In the back room.” A rustle, like a blanket. “I can see the fields from the window. I see your car every Saturday. The gray one with the dent.”
My car has a dent in the rear door. Somebody in the Kroger lot, two winters ago.
“Does your grandma know you’re talking to us?”
“No. She took my tablet at nine. This is the walkie Mom got me for camping.” A pause. “The other one’s under my pillow. I left Mopsy in the ditch Thursday because Krish always stops there to fix his sock. I’ve been pushing the button every night.”
Every night since Thursday. Into a ditch.
“Elsie, you’re supposed to be in Indianapolis.”
“I live in Dayton,” she said. “I’ve always lived in Dayton.”
Bun
There’s a rabbit on the top shelf in Krish’s room. Gray, both ears, two button eyes, a felt nose sewn on a little crooked. His name is Bun. Krish hasn’t slept with him in a year, but Bun doesn’t get moved.
His mom made him the Christmas before Krish was born. She made two. She sat at this same kitchen table with a sewing tin that used to hold butter cookies, and the only thread left in it now is black, which is why my stitches looked like a crime scene.
The first rabbit went to her sister’s baby. Elsie was two. The second one she made with the ears longer, because she said a boy would drag it by the ears and they’d stretch anyway.
So when Krish crouched at that fence and came up holding a ruined rabbit and jammed it under his chin, he wasn’t being a weird kid. He’d seen that shape on his own shelf his whole life.
I didn’t see it. I saw mud.
Here is how we got to the part where my son has a cousin fifteen minutes away and doesn’t know her name.
The week after the funeral, my mother-in-law Ivette stood at my counter scraping casserole dishes into the trash. People had brought eleven of them. Ivette kept a list on the fridge of who brought what so I could write thank-you cards I never wrote.
“Yael’s not coming by,” she said. “I want you to hear it from me.”
I asked why.
“She’s not in a good place. She says things. She said you should’ve made my daughter go to the doctor sooner.” Ivette dried her hands on my dish towel. “I told her she was out of her mind. She’s moving to Indianapolis with Derrick’s job. I think it’s better for everybody. Give it time.”
I gave it three years.
Ivette gave me everything else. She took Krish after school, Monday through Friday, at her place on the far side of the rec fields. She charged me $1,600 a month, and she told me it was below what a daycare would charge, which was true. She was the one who said to sign him up for soccer at Kettering rec. “The fields are right behind my house. I can bring the lemonade.”
She never once brought the lemonade.
On Krish’s sixth birthday she looked at the pile of cards on my table and shook her head. “Not even a card from her sister’s family. I’m sorry, honey. I am.”
I put Mopsy on the table next to the box and the duct tape. Then I went and got Bun down off the shelf and set him beside her.
Same crooked nose.
The walkie clicked on by itself. “Are you still there?” Elsie said. “Grandma’s coming up the stairs.”
Ivette’s driveway
I didn’t sleep. At seven-thirty Sunday I drove Krish to Ivette’s with Mopsy in a grocery bag on the passenger seat.
Her house is the brick ranch with the green shutters, and the backyard runs right down to the ditch along the soccer fields. I had never once walked to the end of her yard. Why would I. It’s a yard.
Ivette opened the door in her robe. She looked at the bag before she looked at me.
“Krish, go watch cartoons,” she said. “Grandma made waffles.”
He went. She stepped out onto the porch and pulled the door almost shut behind her.
“Elsie was here last night,” I said.
“For one night. Yael needed a sitter. I couldn’t exactly say no to my own grandchild.” She held out her hand for the bag. “She’s a lonely little girl. She makes up stories. I’ll give the walkie back to her mother.”
I didn’t hand it over.
“She says she lives in Dayton.”
“They moved back. Recently.” Ivette pulled her robe tighter. “I didn’t tell you because Yael still won’t speak your name, and you’ve had enough. I was protecting you. I’ve been protecting both of you.”
“From what?”
“From her,” she said. “Give me the bag.”
I gave her the bag. I don’t know why. She was Krish’s grandmother and she’d been at my house every day for three years and she was standing there in a robe with her hand out.
She went inside. I sat in the car for a minute with the engine off.
Marvin came down the driveway with the recycling bin. Ivette’s husband, her second one. A quiet man who does crosswords in pen and has never said more than four sentences to me at a time.
He set the bin at the curb and came over to my window.
“She’s here every other weekend,” Marvin said. “Elsie. Has been since spring.”
Yael’s number
I still had Yael’s number. I’d never deleted it. I’d just never pressed it.
I called from the parking lot of the Speedway on Wilmington, with a coffee I didn’t drink going cold in the cup holder.
She picked up on the fourth ring and didn’t say hello.
“You’ve got some nerve,” Yael said.
“Elsie talked to us last night. Through a walkie-talkie. In a rabbit.”
A long silence. Then a sound like she’d put her hand over the phone.
“Mopsy,” she said. “She told me she lost Mopsy at Mom’s.”
“Yael, I didn’t know you were in Dayton. Ivette told me Indianapolis. She told me you didn’t want to see us.”
“Don’t.” Her voice went flat. “Don’t do this. Mom told me what you said. A week after the funeral. That if I came near Krish you’d get a lawyer. That you didn’t want him growing up around somebody who blamed you for what happened to my sister.”
“I never said that.”
“You never called, either. Not once. I sent him cards. Birthdays, Christmas. Three years of them. Mom said you threw them out.”
“I never got a card from you.”
“I sent them to Mom’s,” she said. “Because she said you’d moved and didn’t want me having the address.”
I had moved. Five months after the funeral, to a smaller place on the other side of town, because I couldn’t stand the old one. Ivette handled the forwarding. Ivette handled everything.
“Yael.”
“I have to go,” she said. “Elsie’s listening.”
She hung up.
I sat there with the phone in my lap. I’d called to fix it and now Yael had a voice in her head saying I’d called to argue.
That night Krish asked for Mopsy. I told him Grandma was washing her again. He looked at me the way his mom used to when she knew the answer already and wanted to see if I’d say it.
At ten-fifteen the walkie under Bun clicked. I’d put it there myself. I don’t know what I expected.
“Mom cried after you called,” Elsie said. “She’s not mad at Krish. She’s mad at you.”
“I know.”
“Grandma keeps the cards in the hall closet,” Elsie said. “The ones Mom sent him. I saw them.”
The hall closet
Wednesday I left early and got to Ivette’s at three-forty instead of five-thirty.
Her car was in the driveway. Marvin’s wasn’t. Through the front window I could see Krish at the kitchen island with a juice box and his math sheet, and Ivette in the backyard on the phone with her back to the house.
I let myself in. I’ve had a key for three years.
“Dad,” Krish said. “You’re early.”
“Finish your sheet, bud.”
The hall closet is the one by the front door with the louvered doors that stick. Winter coats. A vacuum. The board games nobody plays. On the top shelf, behind a stack of beach towels, a shoebox from a pair of New Balance.
I took it down.
Cards. A lot of them, rubber-banded in bundles. Every envelope addressed in the same round handwriting I remembered from the grocery lists on my sister-in-law’s fridge. For Krish, c/o Ivette. Ivette’s address. Postmarks from Dayton.
None of them opened.
I opened one. A birthday card with a dinosaur on it, and a twenty-dollar bill folded inside, and Happy 5th buddy, love Aunt Yael, Uncle Derrick and Elsie. Another one. Christmas. A twenty. Another. A picture Elsie had drawn of two rabbits holding hands.
At the bottom of the box, a plain envelope addressed to me. Not to Krish. To me, care of Ivette. Dated the month after the funeral. Opened, and folded back into its envelope.
I read it standing in the hallway.
I’m sorry for what I said at the funeral home, I was out of my head. Mom says you need space and I’ll give it to you. But I’m home all day with Elsie anyway. If you ever need someone to take Krish after school, I’ll do it. You don’t have to pay me anything. He’s my sister’s boy.
The month after the funeral. The same month Ivette sat at my kitchen table with a calculator and told me what a daycare would cost and what she’d charge instead.
Thirty-six months at $1,600.
The back door opened. Ivette came in with her phone still in her hand and saw me in the hall with the shoebox on the floor and the letter in my hand.
“Put that down,” she said. “That’s my closet.”
The counter
I called Yael from the car with Krish in the back seat and read her the letter she wrote. It took her a long time to say anything.
Then she said, “Saturday. I’ll be there Saturday.”
Saturday after practice I didn’t do the loop. I parked in Ivette’s driveway and Yael’s minivan pulled in behind me. Elsie got out holding the other walkie. Krish took one look at her and ran.
Marvin took both kids out to the backyard. He didn’t ask. He just went and stood at the back door and said, “Come see the woodpecker,” and they went.
Ivette was at her kitchen counter, the one with the rooster canisters. I put the shoebox down next to the canisters. Yael stood by the fridge.
“You went through my things,” Ivette said. “In my house.”
I didn’t say anything.
“I’m the one who was there. Me. Every day. Who picked him up when he had the stomach flu? Who sat in that hospital parking lot with you at four in the morning? Not her.” She pointed at Yael without looking at her. “She stood in that funeral home and said it out loud, in front of people, that her sister would still be here if you’d made her go in. And you want to hand him to her? So he can grow up hearing that?”
“I apologized,” Yael said. “Mom. I wrote him a letter. It’s right there.”
“A letter.” Ivette laughed. “One letter. I lost my daughter. I buried my daughter. And the two of you would’ve made it a fight over him by Thanksgiving, and he’d have been calling you Mom by Christmas, Yael, don’t tell me he wouldn’t. I wasn’t going to lose him too.”
“You charged me,” I said.
“For his care.”
“She offered it for free. In that envelope.”
“And I earned every dollar.” Ivette’s face went red up the neck. “You think sixteen hundred dollars is a lot? You have no idea what it costs to keep a little boy in this house. Snacks, gas, his shoes, the field trip money you forgot. I did it all and I never asked you for a thing on top.”
Yael picked up the dinosaur card and turned it over. “Where’s the money, Mom? There were twenties in all of these.”
Ivette looked at the shoebox.
“I took them out,” she said. “Some of them. When things were short. I would have put it back.”
The rubber band on the bottom bundle had snapped at some point and the cards had fanned out. Yael counted the empty ones out loud without meaning to. She got to six and stopped.
“Six,” Yael said. “Elsie put her own allowance in two of those.”
“Don’t you dare,” Ivette said. “Don’t you dare stand in my kitchen and make me the bad guy. I kept this family together.”
Out the window, Krish and Elsie were crouched at the end of the yard by the ditch, a walkie each, a foot apart, talking into them anyway.
I took my checkbook out of my jacket and put it on the counter and didn’t open it.
“Wednesday was the last week,” I said.
Ivette stared at it. Then she looked at the window, at Krish, and something went out of her shoulders.
“He’ll ask for me,” she said.
“I know,” I said.
She picked up her keys off the hook and walked out the front door and sat in her car in the driveway with the engine running and didn’t go anywhere.
Marvin came in from the back. He looked at the shoebox, and then at me.
“Take the box,” he said. “Those are his.”
Saturday, the loop
It costs me now. I leave work at two-thirty four days a week and I took the cut that came with it. Yael has Krish on Wednesdays, and she won’t take a dollar, so I bring dinner. Ivette sees him on Sundays at her house, for two hours, with me in the next room. Krish asks why it’s only Sundays. I tell him that’s the day Grandma has.
He keeps Bun on the shelf. Mopsy has a new ear now, longer than the old one. Yael sewed it on. Her stitches are better than mine.
This Saturday, after practice, we walked the long loop around the rec fields in Kettering. Krish and Elsie were up ahead, kicking one rock the whole way, arguing about whose turn it was.
At the chain-link, Krish crouched to fix his sock.
Elsie ran on ahead to the corner, a good fifty yards, and ducked behind the equipment shed. Krish stood up and pulled the walkie off his belt and held the button down.
“Elsie,” he said. “I know it’s you.”
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